Hey guys who still read my blog!
I have no good excuses for not blogging. Yes I have been busy, but that never stopped me before. I have been distracted. Mostly by www.pintrest.com. It is an amazing site where lots of clever and creative people post things they like or they have made. I spend hours on there.
Another reason for not blogging is the other blogs I read are so awesome it makes mine seem like poo. Ya, so it's not that great of a reason.
My last reason is really it though, I haven't felt like it. Something cool will happen and I'm thinking "Oh, this would be great for my blog." then something else happens and I never get around to it. Who wants to hear a girl have a pity party anyway.
This morning I woke James up singing " So rise and shine and give God the glory, glory." It was prolly a bit annoying for him, but I'm his wife and he should be used to that by now. I remember my mom would wake us up singing that sometimes. It is such a fun song to sing and wake up to.
I'm excited to be going home for Christmas soon. We are going down to Tampa to watch the Bucs play the Cowboys. Just James and me. I'm looking forward to it. Then after that we are traveling back up to Missouri! I can't wait!
I hope all of you have something exciting to look forward to as well. Thanks for reading and have a great day!
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Thursday, November 17, 2011
Fifteen, sixteen, and seventeen
Day 15. Today I am thankful to have finished part of project for a Christmas present. Only three more parts to go!
Day 16. Today I am thankful to have gone on a morning walk with James.
Day 17. Today I am thankful to have made myself wake up to walk by myself and then taken the time to clean up all the poop from the backyard. Such and accomplishment!
Day 16. Today I am thankful to have gone on a morning walk with James.
Day 17. Today I am thankful to have made myself wake up to walk by myself and then taken the time to clean up all the poop from the backyard. Such and accomplishment!
Monday, November 14, 2011
Ten, Eleven, Twelve, Thirteen & Fourteen
Day 10: Today I am thankful for my night owl husband. I normally hate that he gets home at 11:45-Midnight (after his shift) then he stays up till 3-4am, but not today. Today we are traveling across the state to see our friends and he is driving the entire way so I can sleep. Yup, that's definitely something I'm thankful for.
Day 11: Today I am thankful for my best friend Faie. James and I went out to Jacksonville over the weekend to see our newly engaged friends Faie and Chris! Faie had to work on Friday but after her lunch break I was able to go back with her. She is a teacher at a learning center and is in a room of babies. She gets the older ones who aren't yet a year. They were precious and I was glad to have been there. (I did find it odd that my heart didn't burst over all of them and their cuteness, normally it does.) After she got off work we went to David's Bridal. I had a lot of fun and Faie looked stunning in several of the dresses. None were purchased, but she definitely knows what style flatters her figure the best. She has a great hourglass figure. I was really just grateful to be part of the experience.
Day 12: Today I am thankful for water. We went to look at a possible venue today. It was a bed and breakfast in St. Augustine. I think they decided it was too small for their needs but the rooms were very nice and historical looking. It was overlooking the bay and simply gorgeous.
Day 13: Today I am thankful for McDonalds. I have always been a fan, I have had several childhood birthdays there. They were awesome by the way. I got a barbie bike and was allowed to ride it around in McDonalds. Who gets to do that?! Me!!! Anyway James and I stopped for breakfast on our way back home. I got the fruit and walnut salad and the egg mc-muffin. It just hit the spot.
Day 14: Today I am thankful for routines. It was nice to go back to work today.
Day 11: Today I am thankful for my best friend Faie. James and I went out to Jacksonville over the weekend to see our newly engaged friends Faie and Chris! Faie had to work on Friday but after her lunch break I was able to go back with her. She is a teacher at a learning center and is in a room of babies. She gets the older ones who aren't yet a year. They were precious and I was glad to have been there. (I did find it odd that my heart didn't burst over all of them and their cuteness, normally it does.) After she got off work we went to David's Bridal. I had a lot of fun and Faie looked stunning in several of the dresses. None were purchased, but she definitely knows what style flatters her figure the best. She has a great hourglass figure. I was really just grateful to be part of the experience.
Day 12: Today I am thankful for water. We went to look at a possible venue today. It was a bed and breakfast in St. Augustine. I think they decided it was too small for their needs but the rooms were very nice and historical looking. It was overlooking the bay and simply gorgeous.
Day 13: Today I am thankful for McDonalds. I have always been a fan, I have had several childhood birthdays there. They were awesome by the way. I got a barbie bike and was allowed to ride it around in McDonalds. Who gets to do that?! Me!!! Anyway James and I stopped for breakfast on our way back home. I got the fruit and walnut salad and the egg mc-muffin. It just hit the spot.
Day 14: Today I am thankful for routines. It was nice to go back to work today.
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Day Eight and Nine
Day 8: I am thankful for my friend Brooke. I went on a walk and talk with her. It was so nice. The weather was great, the Blue Angels were flying, and I was in the company of a wonderful lady. We are starting to walk in the mornings and I know it will become a habit that I will love. I know we won't be able to do it every morning due to schedules and appointments but I am glad to have someone to be active with.
Day 9: I am thankful for other bloggers. I follow some pretty creative people. One of them shared this video.
Ephesians 1:11 Furthermore, because we are united with Christ, we have received an inheritance from God, for he chose us in advance, and he makes everything work out according to his plan.
This really spoke to me. No I'm not a mom with young children, but I do struggle with having a sense of purpose. I find myself often thinking of being a mom, if I could just have a baby..or if I just had a job that made a difference. Reality is, it is not my season. I know that I will one day be a mom. In my heart of hearts I know and have faith that I will have children. I don't believe God would have placed that desire in me if it were not from Him in the first place. My focus has been off though, I am focused on the end result.
So right now, Lord, I place my focus back on You. I'm sorry for allowing my desire to have a baby and my desire to be thin be greater than my desire to know you. I once again come to with an open and apologetic heart. I love you Lord. Thank you for your great love. You are amazing to me.
Day 9: I am thankful for other bloggers. I follow some pretty creative people. One of them shared this video.
Ephesians 1:11 Furthermore, because we are united with Christ, we have received an inheritance from God, for he chose us in advance, and he makes everything work out according to his plan.
This really spoke to me. No I'm not a mom with young children, but I do struggle with having a sense of purpose. I find myself often thinking of being a mom, if I could just have a baby..or if I just had a job that made a difference. Reality is, it is not my season. I know that I will one day be a mom. In my heart of hearts I know and have faith that I will have children. I don't believe God would have placed that desire in me if it were not from Him in the first place. My focus has been off though, I am focused on the end result.
So right now, Lord, I place my focus back on You. I'm sorry for allowing my desire to have a baby and my desire to be thin be greater than my desire to know you. I once again come to with an open and apologetic heart. I love you Lord. Thank you for your great love. You are amazing to me.
Monday, November 7, 2011
Day Seven
7. I am thankful to have food in my cabinets. It may not always be food that I am in the mood for, but I have never gone hungry. God always provides.
I remember after James and I had been married just a couple of months and I had not yet found a job, money was tight. We typically had the $1 Totino's pizzas, cereal, and mac & cheese in the house. One time I made some plain buttered spaghetti noodles because we didn't have 69 cents to get a can of sauce. The next day I cleverly put some salsa on top, it was decent. Although I haven't had any sense that day. I'm surprised that I look back fondly on those days of being broke. I don't miss the stress, or the fights, or the wondering what bills are going to get paid this month. I guess I just look back and see that I have made it. No I'm not big hot shot and yes I still am an entry level employee. I don't really mind it though. I don't want to think about what others think of me. I am content. I have somewhat learned how to manage money. I still don't really know what savings is exactly, but the bills are definitely all paid on time and some are overpaid :)
I remember after James and I had been married just a couple of months and I had not yet found a job, money was tight. We typically had the $1 Totino's pizzas, cereal, and mac & cheese in the house. One time I made some plain buttered spaghetti noodles because we didn't have 69 cents to get a can of sauce. The next day I cleverly put some salsa on top, it was decent. Although I haven't had any sense that day. I'm surprised that I look back fondly on those days of being broke. I don't miss the stress, or the fights, or the wondering what bills are going to get paid this month. I guess I just look back and see that I have made it. No I'm not big hot shot and yes I still am an entry level employee. I don't really mind it though. I don't want to think about what others think of me. I am content. I have somewhat learned how to manage money. I still don't really know what savings is exactly, but the bills are definitely all paid on time and some are overpaid :)
Sunday, November 6, 2011
Month of Thanks
I'm a late starting on this so I won't elaborate on these first six days.
Day 1. I'm thankful for my savior Jesus Christ.
Day 2. I'm thankful to spend the rest of my life with James, my best friend.
Day 3. I'm thankful to have been blessed with godly, loving parents.
Day 4. I'm thankful for my in-laws. They raised the man I love .
Day 5. I'm thankful for my nieces and nephew. They make the family that much more fun.
Day 6. I'm thankful that I have lasting friendships from everyplace the military has moved us.
Day 1. I'm thankful for my savior Jesus Christ.
Day 2. I'm thankful to spend the rest of my life with James, my best friend.
Day 3. I'm thankful to have been blessed with godly, loving parents.
Day 4. I'm thankful for my in-laws. They raised the man I love .
Day 5. I'm thankful for my nieces and nephew. They make the family that much more fun.
Day 6. I'm thankful that I have lasting friendships from everyplace the military has moved us.
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Soap
I have always loved Bath and Body Works. My favorite products that they sell are the hand soaps and air-fresheners. I don't like spending $6 on soap though so that why I love the in-between retail season. They are putting out all the Christmas stuff and so now is the time to buy your favorite fall products.
I love this cinnamon raisin cookie soap! I wash my hands and it smells just like homemade cookies. I know some people don't like to buy products that smell like food because it makes them either want that food or makes them of course smell like that food. I don't mind though. If you smell me and I remind you of a cookie maybe you'll think I'm sweet. :)
I typically like my house to smell fresh. It is hard to do since we have hound dogs in the house. :/ (When we got back from Japan we said we were jut going to let them sleep in the laundry room. Otherwise they were going to be outside dogs. Yeah, that didn't work out. They just look so sweet and sad...) I fell in love with the bamboo scent of air-freshener and then they discontinued it. I hope that it will come back. Maybe they made it into a spring or summer product. I liked the bamboo scent because it smelled fresh and clean. I typically think that lemon is a fresh and clean scent. (That reminds me, I need to mop the kitchen and bathrooms sometime...eventually....meh..) So when we went into Bath and Body Works we had the intention to buy a fresh smelling air-freshener. Low and behold we found a seasonal fresh smell on sale! Autumn Apple. It is fresh and clean. I am happy to add apple to the fresh smells appropriate for the house. 1. Bamboo 2. Lemon 3. Apple.
Do you know of any other fresh smells that aren't overpowering but make you think "clean?"
I typically like my house to smell fresh. It is hard to do since we have hound dogs in the house. :/ (When we got back from Japan we said we were jut going to let them sleep in the laundry room. Otherwise they were going to be outside dogs. Yeah, that didn't work out. They just look so sweet and sad...) I fell in love with the bamboo scent of air-freshener and then they discontinued it. I hope that it will come back. Maybe they made it into a spring or summer product. I liked the bamboo scent because it smelled fresh and clean. I typically think that lemon is a fresh and clean scent. (That reminds me, I need to mop the kitchen and bathrooms sometime...eventually....meh..) So when we went into Bath and Body Works we had the intention to buy a fresh smelling air-freshener. Low and behold we found a seasonal fresh smell on sale! Autumn Apple. It is fresh and clean. I am happy to add apple to the fresh smells appropriate for the house. 1. Bamboo 2. Lemon 3. Apple.
Do you know of any other fresh smells that aren't overpowering but make you think "clean?"
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Refreshed and Revamped
I just got back home from California today. I went and visited one of my best friends Annie.
We had a great time. You can see in this picture her little girl Bella is hiding. But here is another shot of Bella in all her princess warrior glory.
We really didn't to too much of anything and it was just what I needed. We played a little cornhole,
rummy and speed.
What a fantastic trip! Annie made me her famous beef stroganoff and egg salad. (Not together of course.) Both so yummy! The night sky in El Centro was gorgeous! You just know that God loves us when you see that many stars. Unfortunately I don't have a picture of that to share with you, but it probably wouldn't do it justice anyway.
One night while I was there we went for a walk around her base, the sky was just stunning. As we passed one of the houses there were people outside and they said hi and we said hello back, one of them though said "Ello Govna" in there best British accent. We laughed and kept walking on our merry little way. Then Annie got the bright idea to talk with an accent for the rest of the night. We only made it about an hour, but it was so much fun. I couldn't stop laughing. I think the next time I feel a bad day coming on I will just start talking with an accent. How could anyone have a bad day when they speak with an accent?!
It is good to be home. James did a pretty good job maintaining the place. Hip-hip-hooray! I will still have to do a women's cleaning though. Sorry guys, you just don't seem to have the same eye as we do. Or you fake it to get out of work....hmmmm. ;)
When I arrived home I went and hid in my closet with the door open to let my babies come and find me. It took them forever. They were smelling all over the room. I was trying to stay still and not laugh. Then Bandit found me and Daisy right after. Daisy jumped up right away all happy to have me back. Bandit is too, but James said he isn't feeling well lately. I noticed it after I let him in and out a couple of times. We will be making a trip to the vet tomorrow to see what's going on. Poor baby!
You may have noticed that I did a little switch-a-roo with the blog. I changed the name to fit more of what I want this blog to become. I will no longer be emailing every post. I will email when I feel it is worth sharing. This is still a public blog so you can feel free to pop on by whenever you want! I love you all and hope you enjoy the rest of your week!
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Where oh where?
Saturday James and I went on a little road trip to Mississippi.* Well, it was supposed to be little. The directions mapquest gave us were wrong and on top of that, the address that the website had to where we were going was also wrong. (I would have chose to use google maps, but James still likes mapquest. This is not the first time mapquest has failed me.)
Going up past one of our turns for about an hour was admittedly my fault, so that added two hours to the trip that was supposed to be just under three. I was looking to see how far we were on the road for and it said 117 miles, little did I know that was the wrong column and that was supposed to be total miles traveled. Oops.
This is when I called my best friend who could look up new directions with the wrong address on her computer at home. You see, when we got back from Japan and signed up for our phones, we (meaning I) were scared of technology. What? Why? Isn't Japan like the most technological place in the world? Perhaps, but it is also in Japanese! So no, I was never exposed to cool or fancy things due to the language barrier. So we got phones that were just phones. Very basic.
I actually still like my phone. It does what I need it to do. I absolutely hate texting though. Maybe I would like it more if my phone had a keyboard. It used to be rude to text first because it would cost about 10 cents a text unless you had it in your plan. Gone are those days. Now people seem to think it's rude to call first. Not me. If I give you my phone number it is to call me, not text me. If I can't get to the phone just leave a voicemail. I will call you back. On the other hand if you text me. I will most likely read it, respond in my head and mean to text you back later and then never do. So now I'm the one being rude and you think I'm mad at you.
Ok, now that that spiel is over with... lol. We arrived at our destination in Mississippi** after being on the road for SIX hours! Yikes, six hours on a three hour trip. We need a GPS. We plan on buying one for ourselves the day after Thanksgiving. No we are not going to wait and see if Santa brings us one. We needed one likeyesterday Saturday.
Here is what I need YOU to do. I need you to comment on this here blog and tell me if you have one. I need to know:
1. What system you have.
2. If you get to pick the voice-over (yes, this is important.)
3. If you love it or hate it and why.
*I totally just spelled that in my head "M I crooked letter crooked letter I crooked letter crooked letter I hump back hump back I"
** and again
Going up past one of our turns for about an hour was admittedly my fault, so that added two hours to the trip that was supposed to be just under three. I was looking to see how far we were on the road for and it said 117 miles, little did I know that was the wrong column and that was supposed to be total miles traveled. Oops.
This is when I called my best friend who could look up new directions with the wrong address on her computer at home. You see, when we got back from Japan and signed up for our phones, we (meaning I) were scared of technology. What? Why? Isn't Japan like the most technological place in the world? Perhaps, but it is also in Japanese! So no, I was never exposed to cool or fancy things due to the language barrier. So we got phones that were just phones. Very basic.
I actually still like my phone. It does what I need it to do. I absolutely hate texting though. Maybe I would like it more if my phone had a keyboard. It used to be rude to text first because it would cost about 10 cents a text unless you had it in your plan. Gone are those days. Now people seem to think it's rude to call first. Not me. If I give you my phone number it is to call me, not text me. If I can't get to the phone just leave a voicemail. I will call you back. On the other hand if you text me. I will most likely read it, respond in my head and mean to text you back later and then never do. So now I'm the one being rude and you think I'm mad at you.
Ok, now that that spiel is over with... lol. We arrived at our destination in Mississippi** after being on the road for SIX hours! Yikes, six hours on a three hour trip. We need a GPS. We plan on buying one for ourselves the day after Thanksgiving. No we are not going to wait and see if Santa brings us one. We needed one like
Here is what I need YOU to do. I need you to comment on this here blog and tell me if you have one. I need to know:
1. What system you have.
2. If you get to pick the voice-over (yes, this is important.)
3. If you love it or hate it and why.
*I totally just spelled that in my head "M I crooked letter crooked letter I crooked letter crooked letter I hump back hump back I"
** and again
Friday, October 7, 2011
Let it be
This song seems sad, yet I love it. Paul wrote this after his mother died and she appeared to him in a dream saying all would be well.
It is a relaxing day today. I plan to clean out my car and do some laundry and such. I have 5 days off in a row and I am very thankful for it. It is fall now and while everyone else seems to be speeding up with their schedules I seem to be slowing down. It's nice. I hope to catch up with some things and just let everything be. I love knowing that life goes on. Even though most people say they hate change and I usually agree (big changes anyway.) There is something comforting about that fact there is constant change. Change in the seasons, growing older and wiser. Watching children turn older each year. It is just a nice thought. No matter how much stuff you have going on in your life or how little stuff you have in your life, it just is. God is God and has everything in his hands. He is in control in good and bad, so just let it be. Everything will be and is fine. I'm going to enjoy the day and hope you do the same.
Saturday, October 1, 2011
Thankful
I'm thankful for weekend getaways.
I'm thankful for best friends.
I'm thankful for tailgates and country music with good friends.
I'm thankful for time to blog again!
We have been pretty busy lately. Our days off have been pretty packed but fun. We went to Atlanta two weekends ago. James celebrated his 26th birthday last Saturday. We had the Jason Aldean concert make-up day on Sunday. Yesterday we were both off and we went up to the Bass Pro Shop in Spanish Fort. I plan on going back there to do some shopping since they had a bunch of places to shop. :) Today I had to work and get groceries and tomorrow is church. I'm looking forward to a day where I wont have any plans at all. That sounds nice. Hope all is well with you!
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Hannah and Samuel
When I was in Branson back in May we went to an antique shop and I came across this plaque that held 3 pictures and it said "For this child I prayed... 1st Samuel 1:27" I LOVED IT! I took a picture with my phone. I didn't buy it cause I new that I could make it and make it even cuter. What I loved was the verse. I am totally putting it above my child's crib.
Today I went through the pictures on my phone and came across this. Then I went and opened my bible up and started reading all about Hannah and her prayer for a baby. She was praying so hard and crying that the preacher thought she was drunk! She made a promise to God that if he would give her a baby she would give him back for his entire lifetime. Amazing! So God heard her prayer and she went home and had a baby and when he was weaned she gave him to the church.
I was just thinking about what type of women Hannah must have been. I know that I want a baby badly, but I want to be able to see him/her grow. If I were to be like Hannah was in today's world what would that look like? I'm pretty sure my pastor would not want to have a baby in his house. It would be unthinkable to give your child away.
God did bless Hannah with three more sons and two daughters and it says that Samuel grew up in the presence of the Lord. I know that Hannah must have been at peace about this. Can you imagine growing up in the presence of the Lord himself?
I have just been thinking about all that I read and wondering. What if I prayed and prayed, so much so that I looked like a drunk person. Would I have to promise my child would be God's before I am blessed with one? Would it be ok if I did this? Would this mean giving my child away to live with a minister or a missionary? Would James be at peace with my promise to God?
On another note, I have started going to this foundations Bible study at my church. I chose to be in the one for women and didn't even see what the study was about. It's called "Made to Crave" and it's all about food! Ahhhhh! That is my weakness and now this study is forcing me to deal with it. Yikes, I don't know what I got myself into. To be honest I'm pretty scared that I'm going to have to look at how I see food. Right now it is source of comfort and joy. I guess I'll let you guys in on my progress, most likely there will be a lot of venting ahead.
Tomorrow morning I am going and getting a badly needed haircut. I'm pretty excited. I think I'm going to have several inches cut off since I want to have all the fake blond cut out so it will all be my natural color. I hope it will come out ok. Haircuts can be a pretty scary ordeal. I've had several bad ones and I realize that hair is just hair and it does in fact grow back. I have just come to like having this longer hair.
After I get done at the salon I plan on going to the commissary and buying all whole foods. I have done that before and lasted only a week. I had a ton more energy and a lot more trips to the lou. I'm not going to go completely crazy with it this time. I'm going to try baby steps and hopefully start putting what I put in my mouth in God's hands. I'm hoping that through this study I will be able to turn over my addiction of food to Him. We'll have to see what happens over the next few weeks.
I'm not going to the OB anytime soon. I am tired of all the temperature taking and writing every little thing about my cycle out. I'm going to try and live a healthier lifestyle for the next three months. After the new year I will then ask to be referred to the OB.
I kinda feel like I am giving God three months. Ok God here is my womb, do with it what you will. I do still want to go to the OB after January though just to see what is really going on. God is God though and if there is anything wrong he can see it and fix it. I guess we will all just have to wait.
Today I went through the pictures on my phone and came across this. Then I went and opened my bible up and started reading all about Hannah and her prayer for a baby. She was praying so hard and crying that the preacher thought she was drunk! She made a promise to God that if he would give her a baby she would give him back for his entire lifetime. Amazing! So God heard her prayer and she went home and had a baby and when he was weaned she gave him to the church.
I was just thinking about what type of women Hannah must have been. I know that I want a baby badly, but I want to be able to see him/her grow. If I were to be like Hannah was in today's world what would that look like? I'm pretty sure my pastor would not want to have a baby in his house. It would be unthinkable to give your child away.
God did bless Hannah with three more sons and two daughters and it says that Samuel grew up in the presence of the Lord. I know that Hannah must have been at peace about this. Can you imagine growing up in the presence of the Lord himself?
I have just been thinking about all that I read and wondering. What if I prayed and prayed, so much so that I looked like a drunk person. Would I have to promise my child would be God's before I am blessed with one? Would it be ok if I did this? Would this mean giving my child away to live with a minister or a missionary? Would James be at peace with my promise to God?
On another note, I have started going to this foundations Bible study at my church. I chose to be in the one for women and didn't even see what the study was about. It's called "Made to Crave" and it's all about food! Ahhhhh! That is my weakness and now this study is forcing me to deal with it. Yikes, I don't know what I got myself into. To be honest I'm pretty scared that I'm going to have to look at how I see food. Right now it is source of comfort and joy. I guess I'll let you guys in on my progress, most likely there will be a lot of venting ahead.
Tomorrow morning I am going and getting a badly needed haircut. I'm pretty excited. I think I'm going to have several inches cut off since I want to have all the fake blond cut out so it will all be my natural color. I hope it will come out ok. Haircuts can be a pretty scary ordeal. I've had several bad ones and I realize that hair is just hair and it does in fact grow back. I have just come to like having this longer hair.
After I get done at the salon I plan on going to the commissary and buying all whole foods. I have done that before and lasted only a week. I had a ton more energy and a lot more trips to the lou. I'm not going to go completely crazy with it this time. I'm going to try baby steps and hopefully start putting what I put in my mouth in God's hands. I'm hoping that through this study I will be able to turn over my addiction of food to Him. We'll have to see what happens over the next few weeks.
I'm not going to the OB anytime soon. I am tired of all the temperature taking and writing every little thing about my cycle out. I'm going to try and live a healthier lifestyle for the next three months. After the new year I will then ask to be referred to the OB.
I kinda feel like I am giving God three months. Ok God here is my womb, do with it what you will. I do still want to go to the OB after January though just to see what is really going on. God is God though and if there is anything wrong he can see it and fix it. I guess we will all just have to wait.
Sunday, September 11, 2011
Friday, September 9, 2011
9/11/11
September 11th is only two days away. K-Love (radio station) has been mentioning it all week. It gets me thinking about that devastating day that took place ten years ago.
I was a freshman in high school sitting in Mr. Moyers government class when I first heard about it. I don't remember what class period that was. I'm thinking it was 2nd or 3rd hour. Mr. Moyers was able to get a hold of a tv. He wheeled it into the room and turned it on. Both towers had already been hit. He told us "Pay attention, you are watching history in the making." I don't remember seeing the towers fall or too much else that happened that day. I remember being worried for my Uncle Jim and being worried for my brother. I have no idea what my Uncle Jim does but I knew he worked for the government in some fashion and often traveled to Washington. I was worried for my brother because he was in the Marines at the time and deployed. I was also worried for Lindsay (my sister-in-law) being alone in North Carolina and watching this and then freaking out.
When I got home from school we just watched the news. When my dad got home from work he called either my Aunt Sandy or My Uncle and heard that he was fine.
My bothers deployment was unfortunately extended by at least three months I believe. He was among those first troops to be in Iraq after September 11th. I will never know what he went through. I love and appreciate what he and others like him were able to do for our country.
America's sense of patriotism was so high. It seemed everyone had those yellow ribbon magnets or flag magnets on their cars. America had a cause. How dare someone come into our country and threaten our sense of security. We were out to get those bastards who dared to threaten our freedom.
I can't believe that was ten years ago. I think of all the lives who have been forever changed. How many people died that day. It still breaks my heart and angers me. As an american I never expected any wars or attacks would ever happen on our home soil. That was always something that happened overseas.
K-Love has this make a difference event going on http://www.klove.com/ministry/make-a-difference.aspx
they want a million people to go out on 9/11/11and do something that will impact the world. I want to do something but blogging is the only thing I can think of. I'm hoping that any fellow bloggers out there will just share their story of where you were and what you were thinking after the attacks on 9/11/01.
I wish there was more I could do. I think about all the veterans who were serving during that time and got out like my brother did. They are still young. It was only ten years ago. I feel like my generation thinks of veterans as old homeless guys. My dad is a veteran but he retired from the military and has all those retirement benefits that come as a package deal for his service to our country. He earned those and I'm sure he is grateful to have them. I'm just wondering what our country does for it's veterans who didn't retire. I know there are some VA benefits but is it enough? I really wish I could personally say thank you to those who have served. They say they are just doing their job, but it's a job that is so much more than that. It is a job that requires you to put your best foot forward and represent the fighting spirit of America itself. If you have ever served our country I am forever grateful.
* Edit: Joe was not deployed during this time. He was deployed the next year. So I wasn't worried about Lindsay at this time. Oops. I was worried about her when he was deployed and I do believe that he was gone longer than anticipated.
I also wanted to say that I realize September 11th should not just be about the military and it isn't. It's about all those that lost their lives that day and the everyday heroes that stepped up and did their job. The firefighters and policeman of New York and surrounding areas. Being a military family I tend to see all things military and just wanted to make sure and correct myself.
I was a freshman in high school sitting in Mr. Moyers government class when I first heard about it. I don't remember what class period that was. I'm thinking it was 2nd or 3rd hour. Mr. Moyers was able to get a hold of a tv. He wheeled it into the room and turned it on. Both towers had already been hit. He told us "Pay attention, you are watching history in the making." I don't remember seeing the towers fall or too much else that happened that day. I remember being worried for my Uncle Jim and being worried for my brother. I have no idea what my Uncle Jim does but I knew he worked for the government in some fashion and often traveled to Washington. I was worried for my brother because he was in the Marines at the time and deployed. I was also worried for Lindsay (my sister-in-law) being alone in North Carolina and watching this and then freaking out.
When I got home from school we just watched the news. When my dad got home from work he called either my Aunt Sandy or My Uncle and heard that he was fine.
My bothers deployment was unfortunately extended by at least three months I believe. He was among those first troops to be in Iraq after September 11th. I will never know what he went through. I love and appreciate what he and others like him were able to do for our country.
America's sense of patriotism was so high. It seemed everyone had those yellow ribbon magnets or flag magnets on their cars. America had a cause. How dare someone come into our country and threaten our sense of security. We were out to get those bastards who dared to threaten our freedom.
I can't believe that was ten years ago. I think of all the lives who have been forever changed. How many people died that day. It still breaks my heart and angers me. As an american I never expected any wars or attacks would ever happen on our home soil. That was always something that happened overseas.
K-Love has this make a difference event going on http://www.klove.com/ministry/make-a-difference.aspx
they want a million people to go out on 9/11/11and do something that will impact the world. I want to do something but blogging is the only thing I can think of. I'm hoping that any fellow bloggers out there will just share their story of where you were and what you were thinking after the attacks on 9/11/01.
I wish there was more I could do. I think about all the veterans who were serving during that time and got out like my brother did. They are still young. It was only ten years ago. I feel like my generation thinks of veterans as old homeless guys. My dad is a veteran but he retired from the military and has all those retirement benefits that come as a package deal for his service to our country. He earned those and I'm sure he is grateful to have them. I'm just wondering what our country does for it's veterans who didn't retire. I know there are some VA benefits but is it enough? I really wish I could personally say thank you to those who have served. They say they are just doing their job, but it's a job that is so much more than that. It is a job that requires you to put your best foot forward and represent the fighting spirit of America itself. If you have ever served our country I am forever grateful.
* Edit: Joe was not deployed during this time. He was deployed the next year. So I wasn't worried about Lindsay at this time. Oops. I was worried about her when he was deployed and I do believe that he was gone longer than anticipated.
I also wanted to say that I realize September 11th should not just be about the military and it isn't. It's about all those that lost their lives that day and the everyday heroes that stepped up and did their job. The firefighters and policeman of New York and surrounding areas. Being a military family I tend to see all things military and just wanted to make sure and correct myself.
Thursday, September 1, 2011
The Dreaded Topic: Weight
I have recently been noticing that I am putting on a few pounds. I weighed myself this morning on my little dial scale. I bent over and squinted my eyes to see what it said. (note to self put on glasses next time and buy a digital scale.) Yikes, 188 is what I read. A mere12 pounds from being 200. That's as much as a 6 foot tall man! As a women of 5'4" this is not ideal.
So I googled some weight charts. http://www.healthchecksystems.com/heightweightchart.htm
I think that I am medium built so 138 would be my goal on this chart. 50 pounds to lose. That just seems so depressing. I can't believe I am posting this. Seriously.
I know some of you might say this chart isn't correct it doesn't factor in age or muscle mass or whatever. The thing is I am in fact obese. Not overweight, obese. I might be average by America's standard but America's standards have been questionable for sometime now.
So what is a girl to do? More importantly what is this girl going to do? In all honesty, I have no idea.
I overheard a trainer talking at our gym some time ago. She said 10% of your weight is hereditary, 30% comes from how physically active you are and 60% comes from the food you put into your body.
This is not good news for me. Only 30% is exercising. Not that I really do that anymore anyway. 60% is what I put into my mouth. Just shoot me now. I LOVE to eat. I love to eat bad. Meat, potatoes, and breads are my favorites. I know that it is ok to eat those things but to force myself to cut back on them just seems cruel.
I have been thinking of doing weight watchers or Jenny Craig and ordering the food so then it is all laid out for me, but that doesn't seem very practical. That would only work if James was out to sea. (Note: I am not blaming James for my weight issues. They are mine and mine alone.)
I have also thought about putting the whole make a baby thing on hold and get some prescription energy or diet pills. We wouldn't really stop trying, just not check in with the OB people yet.
I am hoping that putting all this out in the open will somehow magically make me more accountable and aware of what I put in my body. Not sure it will do anything really.
Please note that I know I am still a pretty girl. I know that you can be big and beautiful at the same time. I am not being vain, just confident (at this moment. Wait till i have a mood swing and it's another story!) You cannot however be fat and healthy at the same time unless you are a baby or a grandma. Let's face it who doesn't love a fat baby and a nice warm hug from a plump grandma?
Monday, August 29, 2011
Confessions of a Girl in Love
James has been home recovering from surgery for the past two weeks and goes back to work tomorrow. I'm pretty bummed about that. It has been so nice having him home.
Today he went to his physical therapy at 7am then came back with McDonald's. We watched some tv then he went back to sleep. I said "Your going to go back to bed?"
He said "You could join me."
Ah, this man knows my heart! So I went back to bed with him for a bit. :)
I have really liked working nights these past couple of weeks. We have been sleeping all day and staying up all night. I feel young.
Last week after I got off work he left a voicemail asking me to go out to IHOP with him. So working nights might not be the best for our health but we are having fun. We did take the dogs for a walk around the neighborhood after we got home from IHOP, but I don't think I was quite able to work of all those pancakes.
We are also making some late night trips to Wal-mart. Those are always fun except we tend to buy junk food. We even make it into more of a date by going to the nice Wal-mart vs. going to the ghetto one that is closer to our house. Let me ask you this, does your town have a nice Wal-mart and a ghetto one? When we lived in Virginia it was like that. In our hometown there is only one, but it's nice.
Not much else has been going on. Just hanging out with the hubs and having a great time. I feel like we are back to dating again. I am totally bragging too! :) I'm a girl in love.
Today he went to his physical therapy at 7am then came back with McDonald's. We watched some tv then he went back to sleep. I said "Your going to go back to bed?"
He said "You could join me."
Ah, this man knows my heart! So I went back to bed with him for a bit. :)
I have really liked working nights these past couple of weeks. We have been sleeping all day and staying up all night. I feel young.
Last week after I got off work he left a voicemail asking me to go out to IHOP with him. So working nights might not be the best for our health but we are having fun. We did take the dogs for a walk around the neighborhood after we got home from IHOP, but I don't think I was quite able to work of all those pancakes.
We are also making some late night trips to Wal-mart. Those are always fun except we tend to buy junk food. We even make it into more of a date by going to the nice Wal-mart vs. going to the ghetto one that is closer to our house. Let me ask you this, does your town have a nice Wal-mart and a ghetto one? When we lived in Virginia it was like that. In our hometown there is only one, but it's nice.
Not much else has been going on. Just hanging out with the hubs and having a great time. I feel like we are back to dating again. I am totally bragging too! :) I'm a girl in love.
Thursday, August 25, 2011
wish I was witty
When I get bored I go to my blog and then just start clicking the next blog tab. I have come across several blogs that I love. Oddly enough the ones I like the most are written by Mormon girls.* They don't talk about their faith or anything just about their day to day life.
Why I love their blogs:
They are funny
They have people who comment on them regularly about how funny they are
They spend a lot of time with family both immediate and extended
They are smart and you can tell, it might be that they have fantastic grammar skills
One of them posted this video. I love this girl and think she is now one of my favorites along with Nora Jones and Priscilla Ahn.
*I have a closed mind and think all Mormons have sister-wives and wear purple dresses. I love that this is not true.
Why I love their blogs:
They are funny
They have people who comment on them regularly about how funny they are
They spend a lot of time with family both immediate and extended
They are smart and you can tell, it might be that they have fantastic grammar skills
One of them posted this video. I love this girl and think she is now one of my favorites along with Nora Jones and Priscilla Ahn.
*I have a closed mind and think all Mormons have sister-wives and wear purple dresses. I love that this is not true.
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Respect and Murple
There has been a lot going on lately. When my parents were here the other week James was switched from instructor duty to TAD (temporary assigned duty) at the barracks. He will be at the barracks for a full year and he is working the evening shift from 3:30-11:30. He is ok with this since he knew he would have to go TAD for a year while here and it is best for eval purposes that it be our second year. In our third year he will be back as an instructor so that will be good going back to the fleet. He also chose the evening shift since it has down time and he should be able to study for his MTS. (Master Training Specialist qualification) That is the only reason people like to get orders here is to get that qual. If he wanted to become a teacher when he retires this qualification looks very good. He also hopes to start taking some online college classes soon.
The Navy gave him two weeks off for his shoulder surgery and he is enjoying it mostly. He has no limitations but is still very sore and it is hard for him to move his arm on its own. He started rehab last Friday and is going every other day next week.
Since James is going to be working in the evenings I also switched to evenings. Part of that means some weekends too. I am trying to work every other Saturday and be off on Sundays. I want to be fair to the my co-workers though so I might be working more than that. I don't really think I will be going back to days while we are here. It is my hope to get pregnant soon and then once the baby gets here I will just work maybe one night a week and Saturdays since it really wont be worth it for us to pay for childcare. This is all me dreaming though.
I haven't taken the last round of clomid. I'm not going to. I plan to call my doctor this week and tell her to just refer me down to OB. I just can't handle those hormones. Hot flashes and mood swings and dark scary thoughts are not my cup of tea. I know, I know that's what happens during pregnancy (maybe not the dark thoughts, I hear that happens postpartum) I could handle it if I was carrying a life inside me. It would be worth it then, but I'm not, not yet anyway.
Another thing that has been going on is respect. What? Yup, respect. I have been reading this book called Love and Respect. They have a website loveandrespect.com You can check it out if you want. The entire book is based on this simple concept that women need love and men need respect. I didn't like it at first, it seemed a little chauvinistic. I kept reading though till it gave me some tools to work with. The book is based on biblical teaching so I started practicing using the word respect with James. I was amazed with the response. He was immediately more loving with me. I think initially I wanted to give only to get, but now I feel different. I want James to know that I not only love him but like him, he knows that when I show him respect.
One of the biggest ways that I showed him respect last week when I trusted his judgement for purchasing a new truck. We traded in the Xterra and got an 08 Chevy Silverado. Instead of saying no no no, I was quiet. He chose the best and most logical truck of the ones we were looking at and because he is a responsible guy we have a much better credit score than we did when we got the Xterra so we have a better interest rate and our payments are lower. How awesome is that! A newer vehicle with less miles, a great warranty, and we are paying less than what we were. I'm not trying to brag by any means. It just seems like God is smacking me in the forehead again. "Audra, I gave you this great guy, but your not letting him be great. Your not letting him lead you in making big decisions. Don't you think he is responsible and he wants what is best for you?"
Anywho this past week just seems like it has been one of the best in my life. I have been respectful of my husband and he has seemed more loving than all our 7 years combined and we haven't even done anything out of the ordinary.
Today my church had a fish-fry and baptism. James came with me and we had a good time. Our friends got baptized together and I am so happy for them and hope that we can learn and grow in Christ together.
After we left the fish fry we drove over to Alabama listening to country radio. (We like driving out there if you haven't noticed.) Blake Shelton's song came on God Gave Me You. I wish it would have been our wedding song. I just love it and it fits us. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nDA1s0Uzaq4&feature=related I hope you will take a listen. It plays on K-LOVE christian radio as well. It was originally written by Dave Barns.
Have a great week!
Oh and the new truck is purple. Since we started naming our vehicles (my Uncle Jim and Aunt Sandy's family have always done this, I love it and so James and I now name ours.) James came up with the name Purple Murple. We will just be calling it Murple though. My little car is named Suzi, it is fitting since it's a suzuki. So now we will say when leaving the house "Do you want to take Suzi or Murple?" Haha, I love it! :)
The Navy gave him two weeks off for his shoulder surgery and he is enjoying it mostly. He has no limitations but is still very sore and it is hard for him to move his arm on its own. He started rehab last Friday and is going every other day next week.
Since James is going to be working in the evenings I also switched to evenings. Part of that means some weekends too. I am trying to work every other Saturday and be off on Sundays. I want to be fair to the my co-workers though so I might be working more than that. I don't really think I will be going back to days while we are here. It is my hope to get pregnant soon and then once the baby gets here I will just work maybe one night a week and Saturdays since it really wont be worth it for us to pay for childcare. This is all me dreaming though.
I haven't taken the last round of clomid. I'm not going to. I plan to call my doctor this week and tell her to just refer me down to OB. I just can't handle those hormones. Hot flashes and mood swings and dark scary thoughts are not my cup of tea. I know, I know that's what happens during pregnancy (maybe not the dark thoughts, I hear that happens postpartum) I could handle it if I was carrying a life inside me. It would be worth it then, but I'm not, not yet anyway.
Another thing that has been going on is respect. What? Yup, respect. I have been reading this book called Love and Respect. They have a website loveandrespect.com You can check it out if you want. The entire book is based on this simple concept that women need love and men need respect. I didn't like it at first, it seemed a little chauvinistic. I kept reading though till it gave me some tools to work with. The book is based on biblical teaching so I started practicing using the word respect with James. I was amazed with the response. He was immediately more loving with me. I think initially I wanted to give only to get, but now I feel different. I want James to know that I not only love him but like him, he knows that when I show him respect.
One of the biggest ways that I showed him respect last week when I trusted his judgement for purchasing a new truck. We traded in the Xterra and got an 08 Chevy Silverado. Instead of saying no no no, I was quiet. He chose the best and most logical truck of the ones we were looking at and because he is a responsible guy we have a much better credit score than we did when we got the Xterra so we have a better interest rate and our payments are lower. How awesome is that! A newer vehicle with less miles, a great warranty, and we are paying less than what we were. I'm not trying to brag by any means. It just seems like God is smacking me in the forehead again. "Audra, I gave you this great guy, but your not letting him be great. Your not letting him lead you in making big decisions. Don't you think he is responsible and he wants what is best for you?"
Anywho this past week just seems like it has been one of the best in my life. I have been respectful of my husband and he has seemed more loving than all our 7 years combined and we haven't even done anything out of the ordinary.
Today my church had a fish-fry and baptism. James came with me and we had a good time. Our friends got baptized together and I am so happy for them and hope that we can learn and grow in Christ together.
After we left the fish fry we drove over to Alabama listening to country radio. (We like driving out there if you haven't noticed.) Blake Shelton's song came on God Gave Me You. I wish it would have been our wedding song. I just love it and it fits us. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nDA1s0Uzaq4&feature=related I hope you will take a listen. It plays on K-LOVE christian radio as well. It was originally written by Dave Barns.
Have a great week!
Oh and the new truck is purple. Since we started naming our vehicles (my Uncle Jim and Aunt Sandy's family have always done this, I love it and so James and I now name ours.) James came up with the name Purple Murple. We will just be calling it Murple though. My little car is named Suzi, it is fitting since it's a suzuki. So now we will say when leaving the house "Do you want to take Suzi or Murple?" Haha, I love it! :)
Monday, August 15, 2011
Home Healing
James is at home now. He was in the O.R. for about 3 hours. He is sleeping now. Just hoping he will do as the doctor says and heals quickly. He has his first check-up appointment on the 18th. Thanks for all the prayers and thoughts today! We love you guys. :)
Sunday, August 14, 2011
Surgery
Hey guys,
James is having surgery on his shoulder tomorrow morning. We have to be at the hospital at 8:45am central time. Prayers that the procedure will go as planned or better and a fast recovery would be appreciated.
Thanks!
James is having surgery on his shoulder tomorrow morning. We have to be at the hospital at 8:45am central time. Prayers that the procedure will go as planned or better and a fast recovery would be appreciated.
Thanks!
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Lately
Hey guys,
I hope everyone has been well. My parents came down last week so I was off having fun with them and my nephew Neal. We did go tubing down Blackwater River. I had a good time. After about 30 minutes downstream it started raining and rained for the next 2 1/2 hours for the remainder of the float, haha. It was nice and refreshing rain though and we were already wet and in our swim clothes anyway. :) The guys on the last day went on a Charter fishing tour out in the gulf. They had tons of fun and James wants to take everyone who visits us now. They even had a dolphin come up to the boat and steal the fish they had on their line! How awesome would that be to see!
My mom brought down my mom's old sewing machine and I bought several patters on sale and am hoping to start learning some things. Unfortunately all I learned how to do was thread the machine and place the bobbin in. I hope to be having some skype lessons with my mom.
Last time I blogged I talked about how lately I am feeling like I am in slow motion and everyone is passing me by. Well I'm about to get really honest with you about something I am struggling with. I have been feeling somewhat depressed lately. I am going to go ahead and blame it on hormones. I am still somewhat close minded on depression. It seems everyone has it and relies on medication to help them. If medicine can do this, great. I however am on hormones to help get pregnant. So of course I have a hormone imbalance now. I was having some really dark thoughts and went ahead and told James about them. He is really a great guy at his core. I was just questioning everything about my life.
I went to my life group on Sunday which I basically think of as Sunday school and we are going back to basic Bible truths. It was just what I needed to hear. We read in Colossians 1:16 Christ is the one through whom God created everything in heaven and earth. He made the things we can see and the things we can't see- kings, kingdoms, rulers, and authorities. Everything has been created through him and for him.
We kept reading on till verse 23. You should look it up and read it. Let me know what you think about it. We sat there and discussed verse 16 for awhile though. I was really amazed when we read it. It just brought tears to my eyes. Here I was just the night before talking with James about not having a sense of purpose, and BAM. God says HE created me. Everything was created through him and FOR him. Those are the parts that stuck out to me. I used to think of God as my father. My Dad was the person I loved the most in this world so I related God to my Dad. Now The person I love most in this world is my husband. So this may sound crazy but I feel like I should love God with as much passion that I love my husband with. I think that God loves me not only like a daughter but he loves me in EVERY way possible. God is love. He is also a jealous God and I feel that he wants me to love him every way that I know how. I long to be a pleasing wife and give my husband the respect he deserves and so when I look back at the verse and see that I was created FOR God. I want to be pleasing to God too. I don't want to be disobedient or irreverent. It is just crazy to me. Maybe it's weird that I am interpreting the verse that way.
Something that I also struggle with is reading my Bible. Some weeks the only time my Bible is open is on Sunday morning. How can I have a relationship with God and not listen to him. It's like I'm a bad friend who only does the talking and never listens. I am always amazed when something from the Bible hits me square between the eyes. I'm like "Wow God! That is so good."
He is prolly like "Ya think Audra? I mean I'm only God." I like to think that God has a sense on humor and is sometimes sarcastic. We were created in his image after all. ;)
That's what has been going on with me. I didn't end up going to the doctor to get my pregnancy test done yet. Maybe I will do that tomorrow. I don't think I am though. So I will most likely take my last round of clomid. Hang on James! Just one more round. Please pray for me and for us that these hormones won't get the best of me.
On another note. While my parents were here we had some awesome food. One of my favorite things we had was Olive Garden salad! James got the idea when he saw the peppers in the pickle isle. I thought it was a great idea. We got the lettuce, olives, onion, peppers, shredded italian cheeses, and my mom brought some home grown roma tomatoes. We bought a 17 oz bottle of italain dressing from Olive Garden for only $5. I thought that was a descent price since it is AMAZING! :) It was so good and I hope I made you hungry.
Enjoy the rest of your week! I love you all!
I hope everyone has been well. My parents came down last week so I was off having fun with them and my nephew Neal. We did go tubing down Blackwater River. I had a good time. After about 30 minutes downstream it started raining and rained for the next 2 1/2 hours for the remainder of the float, haha. It was nice and refreshing rain though and we were already wet and in our swim clothes anyway. :) The guys on the last day went on a Charter fishing tour out in the gulf. They had tons of fun and James wants to take everyone who visits us now. They even had a dolphin come up to the boat and steal the fish they had on their line! How awesome would that be to see!
My mom brought down my mom's old sewing machine and I bought several patters on sale and am hoping to start learning some things. Unfortunately all I learned how to do was thread the machine and place the bobbin in. I hope to be having some skype lessons with my mom.
Last time I blogged I talked about how lately I am feeling like I am in slow motion and everyone is passing me by. Well I'm about to get really honest with you about something I am struggling with. I have been feeling somewhat depressed lately. I am going to go ahead and blame it on hormones. I am still somewhat close minded on depression. It seems everyone has it and relies on medication to help them. If medicine can do this, great. I however am on hormones to help get pregnant. So of course I have a hormone imbalance now. I was having some really dark thoughts and went ahead and told James about them. He is really a great guy at his core. I was just questioning everything about my life.
I went to my life group on Sunday which I basically think of as Sunday school and we are going back to basic Bible truths. It was just what I needed to hear. We read in Colossians 1:16 Christ is the one through whom God created everything in heaven and earth. He made the things we can see and the things we can't see- kings, kingdoms, rulers, and authorities. Everything has been created through him and for him.
We kept reading on till verse 23. You should look it up and read it. Let me know what you think about it. We sat there and discussed verse 16 for awhile though. I was really amazed when we read it. It just brought tears to my eyes. Here I was just the night before talking with James about not having a sense of purpose, and BAM. God says HE created me. Everything was created through him and FOR him. Those are the parts that stuck out to me. I used to think of God as my father. My Dad was the person I loved the most in this world so I related God to my Dad. Now The person I love most in this world is my husband. So this may sound crazy but I feel like I should love God with as much passion that I love my husband with. I think that God loves me not only like a daughter but he loves me in EVERY way possible. God is love. He is also a jealous God and I feel that he wants me to love him every way that I know how. I long to be a pleasing wife and give my husband the respect he deserves and so when I look back at the verse and see that I was created FOR God. I want to be pleasing to God too. I don't want to be disobedient or irreverent. It is just crazy to me. Maybe it's weird that I am interpreting the verse that way.
Something that I also struggle with is reading my Bible. Some weeks the only time my Bible is open is on Sunday morning. How can I have a relationship with God and not listen to him. It's like I'm a bad friend who only does the talking and never listens. I am always amazed when something from the Bible hits me square between the eyes. I'm like "Wow God! That is so good."
He is prolly like "Ya think Audra? I mean I'm only God." I like to think that God has a sense on humor and is sometimes sarcastic. We were created in his image after all. ;)
That's what has been going on with me. I didn't end up going to the doctor to get my pregnancy test done yet. Maybe I will do that tomorrow. I don't think I am though. So I will most likely take my last round of clomid. Hang on James! Just one more round. Please pray for me and for us that these hormones won't get the best of me.
On another note. While my parents were here we had some awesome food. One of my favorite things we had was Olive Garden salad! James got the idea when he saw the peppers in the pickle isle. I thought it was a great idea. We got the lettuce, olives, onion, peppers, shredded italian cheeses, and my mom brought some home grown roma tomatoes. We bought a 17 oz bottle of italain dressing from Olive Garden for only $5. I thought that was a descent price since it is AMAZING! :) It was so good and I hope I made you hungry.
Enjoy the rest of your week! I love you all!
Thursday, July 28, 2011
How families work
I have recently been watching a lot of reality tv on Netflix. Teen Mom, Jon & Kate Plus 8, and today I started watching Table for 12. Here are some of my thoughts.
Teen Mom. I love this show and I hate this show. Catelynn chose adoption for her daughter and watching her struggle and then thrive and grow up is really crazy. My heart just breaks for these girls. I can see how Farrah has matured some but is still a teenager and you can see that with how she and her mother talk. (Sometimes I'm ashamed to say I still talk to my mom like a teenager. Lord bless her!) Amber is lost. It seems she lacks in communication skills and turns to violence. I wish that she would stay in therapy to learn life skills. Maci doesn't seem to go after what she wants. I think she could have worked things out with the father of her child but she doesn't express herself. It seems the ones that thrive the best have a good support system. Catelynn didn't have the backing of her family for her decision to use adoption but she was smart and used the support groups and does have Tyler (baby's father). They seem to be wise beyond their years.
Jon & Kate Plus 8. They had twin girls first and then they had sextuplets. I have only seen the first season and a couple of episodes into the 2nd. I don't think I will continue to watch it because I know that they end up divorced. You can see from season one that Jon and Kate just don't talk supportive to each other. I fear that since I am on Clomid we might have multiples. It is a risk of taking this medication. I am a lot like Kate. I like things to be a certain way. I like organization and knowing what is going on. When things don't go my way, lets just say it doesn't go well for James. I can be quite a snot. I know this is something I need to work on and it would be best before we have kids. I want to be a loving and supportive wife. I want James to know that I respect him. The best way he will know that is if I SHOW him. I looked up respect and I like the verb form of the word the best.
–verb (used with object)
Teen Mom. I love this show and I hate this show. Catelynn chose adoption for her daughter and watching her struggle and then thrive and grow up is really crazy. My heart just breaks for these girls. I can see how Farrah has matured some but is still a teenager and you can see that with how she and her mother talk. (Sometimes I'm ashamed to say I still talk to my mom like a teenager. Lord bless her!) Amber is lost. It seems she lacks in communication skills and turns to violence. I wish that she would stay in therapy to learn life skills. Maci doesn't seem to go after what she wants. I think she could have worked things out with the father of her child but she doesn't express herself. It seems the ones that thrive the best have a good support system. Catelynn didn't have the backing of her family for her decision to use adoption but she was smart and used the support groups and does have Tyler (baby's father). They seem to be wise beyond their years.
Jon & Kate Plus 8. They had twin girls first and then they had sextuplets. I have only seen the first season and a couple of episodes into the 2nd. I don't think I will continue to watch it because I know that they end up divorced. You can see from season one that Jon and Kate just don't talk supportive to each other. I fear that since I am on Clomid we might have multiples. It is a risk of taking this medication. I am a lot like Kate. I like things to be a certain way. I like organization and knowing what is going on. When things don't go my way, lets just say it doesn't go well for James. I can be quite a snot. I know this is something I need to work on and it would be best before we have kids. I want to be a loving and supportive wife. I want James to know that I respect him. The best way he will know that is if I SHOW him. I looked up respect and I like the verb form of the word the best.
–verb (used with object)
9.
to hold in esteem or honor: I cannot respect a cheat.
10.
to show regard or consideration for: to respect someone's rights.
11.
to refrain from intruding upon or interfering with: to respect a person's privacy.
To hold in esteem. That may sound over the top, but is it? I don't think so. My husband works hard and provides for me. I have a nice house, the bills are paid, we get to go out to concerts and movies. (I do work so I help out with some of those fun things.) What do I do for him in return? Most days I complain about making dinner and trying to figure out what he wants to eat. I'm also very tired after work. I really have no idea how people do it. I remember my mom always seemed to have an endless supply of energy. She may say she is exhausted but she rarely turns down new projects for the church or helping cook meals for a friend or a church member. She would never sit still. Her hands are always busy. How do you do it Mom?!?!!
I want to be like her. I want to have a clean house and cook nice for my husband and still be active in my friends lives. I don't want to check out. Most days I feel I do just that. "Oh, I'm off work now and I was up since 3, so I'm going to take a nap now. I deserve it." Maybe I do need a nap, but I should limit it to 15-30 mins, not 2 hours. When I wake up I'm grumpy and still tired and don't want to cook or do anything else but watch tv with James. Maybe we need to start turning that tv off. I don't think he would like that too much.
If you are a praying person I would like you to pray for me. I want to be an energetic women of God. Pray that I will be hungry for Him again. I feel like my desire has left me. I feel the weeks just keep passing me by, as if I am in slow motion watching everyone else blaze right on by like they are on fast forward.
James is such a good man. I don't know when that happened. He seems to not get angry as much and is so great with kids. He is outgoing and funny. He can make anyone laugh. He used to be offensive sarcastic funny, (sometimes still is) but now he is really just funny. He knows how to be silly. I love that. He seems to have more patience even with me. Oh he still gets angry don't get me wrong, (especially behind slow drivers) but not like he used to when we were new. I love him so much. We got married when we were 19. We were just kids. I think he has grown up. Lately I feel I am the angry one who gets easily annoyed. I don't want to be like this. He deserves so much more.
Table for 12. So far I have only seen two episodes. I really like this family. They have twins, twins, and then sextuplets. They seem like a team. I love that. I want to be supportive like that. I want my kids to pitch in an be respectful like that. My parents tried to raise us that way. It worked somewhat.
So really I am just in awe of they different dynamics of families and watching how they work.
Sorry that this is on a white background. I copied and pasted the definition and couldn't figure out how to change it back after that part. :( I'm not computer savvy .
Thursday, July 21, 2011
James on the News
James was on our local Fox channels news last night! He is the instructor in the white helmet.
http://www.fox10tv.com/dpp/news/local_news/pensacola/Navy-bomb-assemblers-train-locally?ref=scroller
http://www.fox10tv.com/dpp/news/local_news/pensacola/Navy-bomb-assemblers-train-locally?ref=scroller
Hooray for the Weekend!
I am off tomorrow so I get a three day weekend! :)
I plan on going to yoga in the morning and then attempting to remove the spray paint from the house. I bought Goof Off and Krud Kutter graffiti remover so we will see which one works without doing any damage to the siding.
Update on baby making. ;) haha. I just completed my second round of Clomid. All I can say is HOLY HOT FLASHES! I had about 20 yesterday. They don't last long thank goodness, but enough to make my upper lip and forehead break out in a sweat. My first round I didn't take my temperature so I am doing that this round. So far it hasn't raised enough to say that I'm ovulating yet, but I still have a couple of weeks. I'm excited that it's gonna happen. I take my next pregnancy test on Aug 5th. If not pregnant I have one more round and then I am referred out of family practice and to OB.
My parents and nephew are coming into town the first week in August. We are really excited. My mom is bringing me down my mom's old sewing machine and teaching me how to work it. I always get stuck when I first start, on how to work the bobbin and how to change the thread out. I want to learn some simple projects and hopefully get to were I can make some sun dresses. My friend Brooke recently made me some curtains and is all excited about sewing. She has sewed so many curtains, shower curtains, pillow cases and even a bed runner for her own house. She definitely does things full speed ahead! :) So the plan is to have a day were my mom can teach me some things but also show Brooke some things too. I know that I will be calling Brooke over to help if I get stuck somewhere.
We also plan on tubing down a current river and also go deep sea fishing on a charter boat. I think I might convince them to go to a movie on base since Wednesday 12 and 12:30 movies are FREE! I love FREE! and I love movies. :)
I am super excited about hanging out with Neal. He is such a good kid and I'm not just saying that cause he is my nephew. Honest!
I think that is most of our big plans for August. In September we plan on taking a weekend trip to Atlanta and meeting Faie and PG for a Braves game. We also have the make-up of the Jason Aldean concert because it was rained out. We still went and had the time of our lives though! We got completely SOAKED on the way back to the car so we figured we were already wet so we just stayed and had a good time with our friends right there in the parking lot. Singing and dancing in the rain, swimming and muddin in our cars. I'm excited to go again! :) Also James will be turning 26 on the 24th!
That's pretty much what is going on here for the rest of the summer. I can't believe how fast this year is going by!
I plan on going to yoga in the morning and then attempting to remove the spray paint from the house. I bought Goof Off and Krud Kutter graffiti remover so we will see which one works without doing any damage to the siding.
Update on baby making. ;) haha. I just completed my second round of Clomid. All I can say is HOLY HOT FLASHES! I had about 20 yesterday. They don't last long thank goodness, but enough to make my upper lip and forehead break out in a sweat. My first round I didn't take my temperature so I am doing that this round. So far it hasn't raised enough to say that I'm ovulating yet, but I still have a couple of weeks. I'm excited that it's gonna happen. I take my next pregnancy test on Aug 5th. If not pregnant I have one more round and then I am referred out of family practice and to OB.
My parents and nephew are coming into town the first week in August. We are really excited. My mom is bringing me down my mom's old sewing machine and teaching me how to work it. I always get stuck when I first start, on how to work the bobbin and how to change the thread out. I want to learn some simple projects and hopefully get to were I can make some sun dresses. My friend Brooke recently made me some curtains and is all excited about sewing. She has sewed so many curtains, shower curtains, pillow cases and even a bed runner for her own house. She definitely does things full speed ahead! :) So the plan is to have a day were my mom can teach me some things but also show Brooke some things too. I know that I will be calling Brooke over to help if I get stuck somewhere.
We also plan on tubing down a current river and also go deep sea fishing on a charter boat. I think I might convince them to go to a movie on base since Wednesday 12 and 12:30 movies are FREE! I love FREE! and I love movies. :)
I am super excited about hanging out with Neal. He is such a good kid and I'm not just saying that cause he is my nephew. Honest!
I think that is most of our big plans for August. In September we plan on taking a weekend trip to Atlanta and meeting Faie and PG for a Braves game. We also have the make-up of the Jason Aldean concert because it was rained out. We still went and had the time of our lives though! We got completely SOAKED on the way back to the car so we figured we were already wet so we just stayed and had a good time with our friends right there in the parking lot. Singing and dancing in the rain, swimming and muddin in our cars. I'm excited to go again! :) Also James will be turning 26 on the 24th!
That's pretty much what is going on here for the rest of the summer. I can't believe how fast this year is going by!
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Crazy Hounds
These are our hounds and you can see why we love them so much! They are just too cute even when they are loud. <3
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Freestyle writing entry
I am sitting on my couch right now looking at my green wall. We are allowed to paint on base housing but have to paint it back so we only went with one wall. My mom just called. They are coming for a visit at the end of the month. I went to ITT (information, tours &tickets) yesterday to see about tubing down blackwater river and about fishing charter boats. I love vacation and days off. If I could I would never work another day in my life. I am so lazy. This is not a good thing. I feel like if I were to die today my tombstone would read "Lazy girl who really loved her sleep." I guess that is a bit morbid to think about. I am a morbid thinker. I think about death more than I talk about it cause talking about all the what if so and so were to die makes people uncomfortable. What if we all lived our lives based on what would be written in our obituaries and only had one sentence written on your Tombstone? What would you want to leave people thinking about? Sometimes I really care about what people think. Other times I trick myself with thinking, "Who is this punk?" but I think at the end of the day I still want that punk to like me. I love my husband. He knows me better than anyone I think. What I like most is I can truly be myself. I'm not sure thats a good thing. I am not as nice and people seem to think I am. He knows that. I like that he knows that and still loves me anyway. Haha, he just called and asked if I wanted to walk the dogs...ok, back from walking the dogs. He is watering the yard now. We did a lot of yard work this past week. We were able to get 4 large bushes and 5 grassy plants for free from our friends who just bought a house. (Thank you Brooke and Charlie! We had fun, or at least I did, haha!) Their house was a bit over landscaped and mine had nothing at all. They helped us and we helped them. We also painted our shutters. We bought some red paint from Wal-mart and the guy had no idea what he was doing. It looked almost orange. I painted one set and decided that I hated it. We ended up spray painting them cause the paint looked better and it was the faster lazier way to get things done in the heat of Florida. I tried to see if we could take them down before we painted them but they were breaking off and I did not want to have to buy replacement shutters. My mom said they were cheap but 4 sets from online would have been about $160. If this was OUR house then I know that would seem cheap, but some other military family will move in after we move out so....I'm not buying the shutters. So now you prolly guessed it...we have spray paint on our house. James thinks it will come off with a little bit of sandpaper. I hope it does, I'll try that on Friday. That is my next day off. It is too hot and I am too tired to try when I get off from work. I was able to switch my day off this week from Thursday to Friday. That is good cause we are going to a Jason Aldean concert on Thursday night and I am not going to want to wake up at 3am the next day. I need to start listening to more of his music so I can sing along to all the songs. I know a lot of them but I need a refresher. Concerts are way more fun when you can sing along. I think we will listen to him as we fall asleep tonight. Then tomorrow I will steal James' iPod and start listening in my car. ;) Ok well James is wanting me to make him a grilled cheese so I'm going to go do that. Have a great week.
Monday, July 4, 2011
Happy 235th Birthday America!
Happy 4th of July everybody!
I hope everyone has had a safe and fun weekend so far and will keep that going tonight. We had a blast last night at a friends house and will have more fun today at another friends house. I love having friends. (Who doesn't right?!) Being a military spouse it isn't always easy to pick up and make new friends. Little did I know how small the military was and that we would have some of the same friends at every duty station we have been at. It is nice to see those familiar faces and have those shared experiences.
Last year for the forth we were back home in Missouri. We had just been house hunting in Florida for two weeks and then went home for two weeks before James had to report for duty. We had so much fun setting off our own fireworks. My mom of course made fantastic food and dessert. James had so much fun being the big kid with my nephew and setting all the fireworks off. I will never forget the look on Emma's face after he set off a lady bug firework. It spun around so quickly and flew up into the air with a screeching scream she turned around and ran to her mom with a horrified look on her face. It was so funny. And no I'm not a horrible person for finding humor in my nieces terror. Everybody thought is was hilarious. Plus she was only about to turn three and was and is still adorable.
So that was last year. James and I have been back in America for over a year. What is really crazy is that we have been together in the same bed EVERY night for over a year. Even when he has duty he has never had an overnight watch. When we were in Virginia every eight days he would have to sleep on the boat. It has been kind of weird adjusting to being together so much.
James is an instructor at A school down here. He get's these guys right after boot camp and teaches them everything about being an AO (Aviation Ordnance.) James is an AO. He worked on the flight deck when we was on the aircraft carrier. AOs pretty much build and maintain the ordnance (bombs) until it is time to hand it over to the guys who load it onto the planes and then the planes distribute it to unknown terrorists around the world. Haha, Happy Birthday America! Right!?
James really loves being an instructor. He gets these kids for just a short amount of time and makes a real connection with them. He becomes friends with most of them after they graduate on facebook. He gets emails if they have questions about anything once they get to the fleet. Seeing all of his little AOs out there in the fleet really makes him miss being out there. As much as he loves being an instructor he is still a sailor and I posted before that sailors are meant to be out there sailing . It is in his blood now. It's in mine too.
We are both already anxious about where our next adventure will be. We still have a full two years left here and we are already ready for some new action. I am already looking at other base websites to see what is out there. Crazy. I used to think I would be horrible at being a military wife. Now I don't think I will do so well when it comes time for him to retire. Not having to move. I LOVE moving. I also am a crazy wife who likes when my husband has a duty day. WHAT?!! Yup, I said it. I like having a day off to myself where I don't have to cook for the both of us and I get to watch whatever I want on tv or I get to go to bed really early and not feel bad about having spent little time with my husband that day. My friends say that will change when I have kids. I'm sure it will. I LOVE my husband please don't misunderstand. I love having time to myself though too. So does he. Usually after a duty day I cook my best meal and make him feel good about coming home. I do miss him when he has duty or when he is deployed. I just feel refreshed after having time to myself.
We are still learning how to be together after six years of marriage. I don't think we will stop learning how to be together. I hear couples who have been together over half of their lives who have the same discussions that James and I do. I find that comforting. I like knowing that there will always be some give and take and adjustments to get used to. Otherwise things feel mundane. I like excitement and passion and I like days off too. :)
I hope everyone has had a safe and fun weekend so far and will keep that going tonight. We had a blast last night at a friends house and will have more fun today at another friends house. I love having friends. (Who doesn't right?!) Being a military spouse it isn't always easy to pick up and make new friends. Little did I know how small the military was and that we would have some of the same friends at every duty station we have been at. It is nice to see those familiar faces and have those shared experiences.
Last year for the forth we were back home in Missouri. We had just been house hunting in Florida for two weeks and then went home for two weeks before James had to report for duty. We had so much fun setting off our own fireworks. My mom of course made fantastic food and dessert. James had so much fun being the big kid with my nephew and setting all the fireworks off. I will never forget the look on Emma's face after he set off a lady bug firework. It spun around so quickly and flew up into the air with a screeching scream she turned around and ran to her mom with a horrified look on her face. It was so funny. And no I'm not a horrible person for finding humor in my nieces terror. Everybody thought is was hilarious. Plus she was only about to turn three and was and is still adorable.
So that was last year. James and I have been back in America for over a year. What is really crazy is that we have been together in the same bed EVERY night for over a year. Even when he has duty he has never had an overnight watch. When we were in Virginia every eight days he would have to sleep on the boat. It has been kind of weird adjusting to being together so much.
James is an instructor at A school down here. He get's these guys right after boot camp and teaches them everything about being an AO (Aviation Ordnance.) James is an AO. He worked on the flight deck when we was on the aircraft carrier. AOs pretty much build and maintain the ordnance (bombs) until it is time to hand it over to the guys who load it onto the planes and then the planes distribute it to unknown terrorists around the world. Haha, Happy Birthday America! Right!?
James really loves being an instructor. He gets these kids for just a short amount of time and makes a real connection with them. He becomes friends with most of them after they graduate on facebook. He gets emails if they have questions about anything once they get to the fleet. Seeing all of his little AOs out there in the fleet really makes him miss being out there. As much as he loves being an instructor he is still a sailor and I posted before that sailors are meant to be out there sailing . It is in his blood now. It's in mine too.
We are both already anxious about where our next adventure will be. We still have a full two years left here and we are already ready for some new action. I am already looking at other base websites to see what is out there. Crazy. I used to think I would be horrible at being a military wife. Now I don't think I will do so well when it comes time for him to retire. Not having to move. I LOVE moving. I also am a crazy wife who likes when my husband has a duty day. WHAT?!! Yup, I said it. I like having a day off to myself where I don't have to cook for the both of us and I get to watch whatever I want on tv or I get to go to bed really early and not feel bad about having spent little time with my husband that day. My friends say that will change when I have kids. I'm sure it will. I LOVE my husband please don't misunderstand. I love having time to myself though too. So does he. Usually after a duty day I cook my best meal and make him feel good about coming home. I do miss him when he has duty or when he is deployed. I just feel refreshed after having time to myself.
We are still learning how to be together after six years of marriage. I don't think we will stop learning how to be together. I hear couples who have been together over half of their lives who have the same discussions that James and I do. I find that comforting. I like knowing that there will always be some give and take and adjustments to get used to. Otherwise things feel mundane. I like excitement and passion and I like days off too. :)
Friday, July 1, 2011
Feelin Pretty
I just got my make-up done at the Estee Lauder counter at the Nex. They were giving away some FREE samples! I feel pretty so I had James take my picture. :)
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
He's Got This
Last night I went to bed feeling pretty crappy about myself. I think most women feel this way from time to time. I have been feeling like I'm in a rut, sometimes it seems spiritual, sometimes it has to do with my job and sometimes it has to do with my body. Last night it was dealing with my body. I spent about 20 minutes tweezing my face. Yup, not just my eyebrows but my little mustache and under my chin. I have gross man hair growing and it makes me feel so unattractive. It is hardly noticeable but I can feel it and also have ingrown hairs that look like giant pimples. Not to mention I weighed myself yesterday and I am a mere four pounds away from being my heaviest weight. I had lost about 15 pounds three years ago and kept it off for a long time. Well this year it has been creeping back up on me. I figured some would since we are back in the states and driving instead of walking everywhere.
I go through little spurts of exercising, the thing is, it really isn't the exercising that gets to me. I am pretty active just from work and housework. I do need to do more than I have been but I don't feel that is my downside. My downside is food. I love to eat. I eat when I am bored. I eat more than my husband and he is nearly and entire foot taller than me.
Anywho I did not want this entry to be all about how crappy I feel. I went to work this morning and heard two really great songs.
The first one was this: http://videolyric.com/music-clips/steven-curtis-chapman-do-everything-lyrics-and-video-clip.html
That one is bad audio, but it has all the words typed out. This one from his site is better. http://stevencurtischapman.com/ Just click play.
I love this little part of the song:
I often feel I am going through my life and thats just it. I work, I nap, I clean, I eat, I watch tv. What does it matter to anyone? I have been physically drained since moving to Florida. I think it's the heat, maybe it is health related. I'm not sure. I feel so lazy and sometimes wonder if I'm disappointing God by taking a nap. I feel I am sometimes, I know that I am disappointing myself and my husband. I really want to volunteer at the dental clinic just to get my hands on experience back but I am SO tired.
This song this morning was refreshing to hear. "Little stuff, big stuff, in between stuff." It all does matter. So even if I don't have the energy to volunteer it's ok. When I do have the energy to do big stuff or little stuff as long as I am working as though it is just for HIS glory is all that matters. So today I worked hard and I am hoping to get my bathroom clean and a load of laundry started before I go down for my nap. I am praising God today. He made this day, he made me. If he wants to give me extra energy for his ministry he will. I can use the energy he has already given me and still glorify Him. Yes, I do plan on glorifying him with my clean toilet and having clean clothes to wear to work tomorrow.
The other song that I hear made me tear up a little. It is by Chris Tomlin
http://www.vevo.com/watch/chris-tomlin/i-lift-my-hands/US82Y1100034
It is just an amazing song. I am crying right now. He is a faithful God. No matter what I pour out to Him, he can and does handle it. I know when I talk to Him things WILL BE and ARE ok. He is in control. No matter if we are at war, if I am worried about paying bills, or even being able to have a baby. HE is in control and when I surrender my desire to Him I know it is good. He is faithful. This desire I have he knows about it. If and when he sees to make it happen it will. He is God after all. Songs like this encourage me and remind me of that. I don't need to be so wrapped up in my own problems because He has got it. He has got it under control.
I go through little spurts of exercising, the thing is, it really isn't the exercising that gets to me. I am pretty active just from work and housework. I do need to do more than I have been but I don't feel that is my downside. My downside is food. I love to eat. I eat when I am bored. I eat more than my husband and he is nearly and entire foot taller than me.
Anywho I did not want this entry to be all about how crappy I feel. I went to work this morning and heard two really great songs.
The first one was this: http://videolyric.com/music-clips/steven-curtis-chapman-do-everything-lyrics-and-video-clip.html
That one is bad audio, but it has all the words typed out. This one from his site is better. http://stevencurtischapman.com/ Just click play.
I love this little part of the song:
Little stuff big stuff in between stuff
God sees it all the same
And while I may not know you I bet I know you
Wonder sometimes does it matter at all
We’ll let me remind you it all matters just as long as you do
God sees it all the same
And while I may not know you I bet I know you
Wonder sometimes does it matter at all
We’ll let me remind you it all matters just as long as you do
Everything you do to the glory of the One who made you
Cause He made you
To do every little thing that you do to bring a smile to His face
And tell the story of grace with every move that you make
And every little thing that you do
Cause He made you
To do every little thing that you do to bring a smile to His face
And tell the story of grace with every move that you make
And every little thing that you do
I often feel I am going through my life and thats just it. I work, I nap, I clean, I eat, I watch tv. What does it matter to anyone? I have been physically drained since moving to Florida. I think it's the heat, maybe it is health related. I'm not sure. I feel so lazy and sometimes wonder if I'm disappointing God by taking a nap. I feel I am sometimes, I know that I am disappointing myself and my husband. I really want to volunteer at the dental clinic just to get my hands on experience back but I am SO tired.
This song this morning was refreshing to hear. "Little stuff, big stuff, in between stuff." It all does matter. So even if I don't have the energy to volunteer it's ok. When I do have the energy to do big stuff or little stuff as long as I am working as though it is just for HIS glory is all that matters. So today I worked hard and I am hoping to get my bathroom clean and a load of laundry started before I go down for my nap. I am praising God today. He made this day, he made me. If he wants to give me extra energy for his ministry he will. I can use the energy he has already given me and still glorify Him. Yes, I do plan on glorifying him with my clean toilet and having clean clothes to wear to work tomorrow.
The other song that I hear made me tear up a little. It is by Chris Tomlin
http://www.vevo.com/watch/chris-tomlin/i-lift-my-hands/US82Y1100034
It is just an amazing song. I am crying right now. He is a faithful God. No matter what I pour out to Him, he can and does handle it. I know when I talk to Him things WILL BE and ARE ok. He is in control. No matter if we are at war, if I am worried about paying bills, or even being able to have a baby. HE is in control and when I surrender my desire to Him I know it is good. He is faithful. This desire I have he knows about it. If and when he sees to make it happen it will. He is God after all. Songs like this encourage me and remind me of that. I don't need to be so wrapped up in my own problems because He has got it. He has got it under control.
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