The Dreaded Topic: Weight

I have recently been noticing that I am putting on a few pounds. I weighed myself this morning on my little dial scale. I bent over and squinted my eyes to see what it said. (note to self put on glasses next time and buy a digital scale.) Yikes, 188 is what I read. A mere12 pounds from being 200. That's as much as a 6 foot tall man! As a women of 5'4" this is not ideal. 

So I googled some weight charts. http://www.healthchecksystems.com/heightweightchart.htm

I think that I am medium built so 138 would be my goal on this chart. 50 pounds to lose. That just seems so depressing. I can't believe I am posting this. Seriously.

I know some of you might say this chart isn't correct it doesn't factor in age or muscle mass or whatever. The thing is I am in fact obese. Not overweight, obese. I might be average by America's standard but America's standards have been questionable for sometime now. 

So what is a girl to do? More importantly what is this girl going to do? In all honesty, I have no idea.

I overheard a trainer talking at our gym some time ago. She said 10% of your weight is hereditary, 30% comes from how physically active you are and 60% comes from the food you put into your body. 

This is not good news for me. Only 30% is exercising. Not that I really do that anymore anyway. 60% is what I put into my mouth. Just shoot me now. I LOVE to eat. I love to eat bad. Meat, potatoes, and breads are my favorites. I know that it is ok to eat those things but to force myself to cut back on them just seems cruel. 

I have been thinking of doing weight watchers or Jenny Craig and ordering the food so then it is all laid out for me, but that doesn't seem very practical. That would only work if James was out to sea. (Note: I am not blaming James for my weight issues. They are mine and mine alone.)

I have also thought about putting the whole make a baby thing on hold and get some prescription energy or diet pills. We wouldn't really stop trying, just not check in with the OB people yet. 

I am hoping that putting all this out in the open will somehow magically make me more accountable and aware of what I put in my body. Not sure it will do anything really. 

Please note that I know I am still a pretty girl. I know that you can be big and beautiful at the same time. I am not being vain, just confident (at this moment. Wait till i have a mood swing and it's another story!) You cannot however be fat and healthy at the same time unless you are a baby or a grandma. Let's face it who doesn't love a fat baby and a nice warm hug from a plump grandma?