He's Got This

Last night I went to bed feeling pretty crappy about myself. I think most women feel this way from time to time. I have been feeling like I'm in a rut, sometimes it seems spiritual, sometimes it has to do with my job and sometimes it has to do with my body. Last night it was dealing with my body. I spent about 20 minutes tweezing my face. Yup, not just my eyebrows but my little mustache and under my chin. I have gross man hair growing and it makes me feel so unattractive.  It is hardly noticeable but I can feel it and also have ingrown hairs that look like giant pimples. Not to mention I weighed myself yesterday and I am a mere four pounds away from being my heaviest weight. I had lost about 15 pounds three years ago and kept it off for a long time. Well this year it has been creeping back up on me. I figured some would since we are back in the states and driving instead of walking everywhere.
I go through little spurts of exercising, the thing is, it really isn't the exercising that gets to me. I am pretty active just from work and housework. I do need to do more than I have been but I don't feel that is my downside. My downside is food. I love to eat. I eat when I am bored. I eat more than my husband and he is nearly and entire foot taller than me.
Anywho I did not want this entry to be all about how crappy I feel. I went to work this morning and heard two really great songs.

The first one was this: http://videolyric.com/music-clips/steven-curtis-chapman-do-everything-lyrics-and-video-clip.html

That one is bad audio, but it has all the words typed out. This one from his site is better. http://stevencurtischapman.com/  Just click play.

I love this little part of the song:

Little stuff big stuff in between stuff
God sees it all the same
And while I may not know you I bet I know you
Wonder sometimes does it matter at all
We’ll let me remind you it all matters just as long as you do

Everything you do to the glory of the One who made you
Cause He made you
To do every little thing that you do to bring a smile to His face
And tell the story of grace with every move that you make
And every little thing that you do

I often feel I am going through my life and thats just it. I work, I nap, I clean, I eat, I watch tv. What does it matter to anyone? I have been physically drained since moving to Florida. I think it's the heat, maybe it is health related. I'm not sure. I feel so lazy and sometimes wonder if I'm disappointing God by taking a nap. I feel I am sometimes, I know that I am disappointing myself and my husband. I really want to volunteer at the dental clinic just to get my hands on experience back but I am SO tired.
This song this morning was refreshing to hear. "Little stuff, big stuff, in between stuff." It all does matter. So even if I don't have the energy to volunteer it's ok. When I do have the energy to do big stuff or little stuff as long as I am working as though it is just for HIS glory is all that matters. So today I worked hard and I am hoping to get my bathroom clean and a load of laundry started before I go down for my nap. I am praising God today. He made this day, he made me. If he wants to give me extra energy for his ministry he will. I can use the energy he has already given me and still glorify Him. Yes, I do plan on glorifying him with my clean toilet and having clean clothes to wear to work tomorrow.

The other song that I hear made me tear up a little. It is by Chris Tomlin
http://www.vevo.com/watch/chris-tomlin/i-lift-my-hands/US82Y1100034

It is just an amazing song. I am crying right now. He is a faithful God. No matter what I pour out to Him, he can and does handle it. I know when I talk to Him things WILL BE and ARE ok. He is in control. No matter if we are at war, if I am worried about paying bills, or even being able to have a baby. HE is in control and when I surrender my desire to Him I know it is good. He is faithful. This desire I have he knows about it. If and when he sees to make it happen it will. He is God after all. Songs like this encourage me and remind me of that. I don't need to be so wrapped up in my own problems because He has got it. He has got it under control.

Things I Love

There are so many things I want to blog about right now it was hard for me to decide what topic to go with. I stumbled upon another blog and on the side they have listed all the things that they love. It made me happy to read that and then I started thinking of all the things that I love and I wanted to share. Happiness and smiles are contagious.

James and I celebrated our six year anniversary on the 17th. That makes me happy. I am so in love with my husband. He is an amazing man. He doesn't even see it.

I love Jesus, of course, you knew that was coming right? haha, What can I say about Him, He is my savior. The one who makes me me. Without him I am lost.

I love my family. My parents are awesome. My brother and his family just came for a visit. I love them so much. My nieces are getting so big. Anna was shy at first but then she was so loving. Emma loves everything. Your shirt, your hair, your car, your m&m's, the beach. They both have the best laughs in the world. I love my nephew Neal. He is fun and responsible and a real genuine good kid.

I love it when I discover new music. Right now I am really into mellow sounding carefree voices. I like Nora Jones, Jason Mraz and I just discovered Priscilla Ahn. James has more on his iPod then I do. There is another guy that fits into my category that I can't think of right now.

I love my dogs, they are smelly and look sad almost all of the time but they just love me and are so lovable.

I love puppies.

I love Americas Funniest Home Videos. That show makes me laugh so hard. I love when they do the music montages to all the people falling down or getting hit. I nearly start crying it is so funny.

I love Praise and Worship music and singing with all my heart. It is so therapeutic and just fun.
I love it when I laugh so hard I nearly cry.
I love it when people laugh around me.
I love naps.
I love cookies.
I love my moms cooking.
I love rainy sleepy days.
I love the sunshine on the beach.
I love making breakfast on the weekends or having breakfast for dinner.
I love my hair.
I love my smile, I would still like to get braces, but I love how I look in pictures when I am laughing.
I love wearing bras from Victoria's Secret.
I love sleeping in a cold room with lots of blankets.
I love blogging and being able to write whatever I want.
I love organized closets.
I love dangle earring.
I love Netflix.
I love watching movies.
I love when my hair still smells like shampoo in the middle of the day.
I love walking barefoot on wet sand.
I love riding in the car with my husband. Windows down and radio up.
I love sweet tea.
I love how I feel after a hard days work or a good workout. Sure it might have been a pain at the time but now it's over and I'm so glad I did it.
I love planning our dream house.
I love flowers.
I love things that sparkle.
I love wearing the color yellow.
I love my beach hat.
I love babies. I love when they laugh, they even look cute when they cry. I love how they smell.
I love my life.

I am so blessed.

I love that you read my blog! :)

Forever was only Yesterday

Five years ago we had roommates. We had only been married for six months when the lease was up on James' first apartment. James was really good friends with Trent, a guy from the boat, he was a newly wed as well. Virginia is pretty expensive for young 19 year old kids. So we met and agreed to live together. My mom thought I was insane. 

At times is was insane, lol. I hated living in Virginia. I hated the traffic, I hated how rude the people seemed. I remember James used to eat Sabrina's chips all the time. He is a chip addict. Sometimes it was crowded. Most of the time though it was nice.

When James and Trent went out to sea Sabrina and I weren't left alone. I remember I got in a car accident and it was nice to have Sabrina to go home and talk about it. She was an awesome cook too. She makes this really amazing shrimp pasta dish. She also made chicken spaghetti just like my mom. Sabrina used to dance in her seat when she would eat something yummy. After they moved I noticed that I do that now too. I clinch my fists and shake a little when I get excited about something. (James jokes that I have turrets and it's some sort of tick.) Sabrina started doing that a little before she left. 

Today we saw them. They are on vacation with Trent's parents and went to Orange Beach Al, it's about an hour from where we live. They went to the Naval Aviation Museum and we met up with them and had lunch. They are just the same but with two little girls now. Sabrina was just pregnant with their first when Trent got out of the Navy. 

When Trent and James saw each other Trent put James in a head lock and said "What's up buddy?!" It was just like old times and I nearly started crying. It is so nice to see old friends. They are some really good friends, genuine down to earth nice people. Those type of friends you don't meet very often in life. We have been fortunate to have at least one couple at every duty station that we have had that level of friendship with. They become your family. Maybe we jumped into by being roommates, but that's ok by me. 

It was nice to see you Trent and Sabrina, hopefully we won't wait four years for the next visit. We love you. 

This Band

James and I just watched "No Strings Attached". During the movie there is this band playing at the bar and they did this interesting version of "99 problems"
I looked it up and you can listen to them yourself. I really like them, they sound like an old rock band.
Anyway here is a link to their website.
http://www.hugoofficial.com/

Peanut Butter

I love peanut butter. I used to hate it when I was little. Now I find it very comforting.

I love it with apples and bananas, on a sandwich with grape, strawberry and especially blackberry jam. 

James once dipped Nilla Wafers into the peanut butter jar and ate them. I sit here now doing the same thing, wondering why no one has put this together to sell them. It is good and you should try it. Much better than on a Ritz. 

Oh and you can't forget the big glass of milk!

Can't sleep

It is now just after 5am on a Sunday. I went to bed around 11, that's pretty late for me and I didn't fall asleep till after 1. I couldn't shut my brain off so I got up and made a list of the things I wanted to get done in the next weeks before company starts coming in. I thought getting it out of my head and onto paper would help.

I don't know if I can't sleep because I worked too hard in the yard today or if it is a side affect of the Clomid. I took my first pill yesterday! I just looked at the side effects and it didn't say anything about sleep. It does say, "Stomach upset, bloating, abdominal/pelvic fullness, flushing ("hot flashes"), breast tenderness, headache, or dizziness may occur." So far I have an upset stomach. Hopefully that's all I get. I have some friends who have taken Clomid and couldn't stand the side effects. I think they had almost all of them plus severe mood swings. It is a hormone so I am prepared for the worst from their stories. I don't know if James is prepared or not, hahahaha! Maybe that should be changed to an evil laugh, MmWahahahaha! ;) Just kidding babe!

So I guess I can't sleep because I overexerted myself today, yesterday actually. James and I leveled some flower beds out and put the weed free black sheets out and placed down some landscaping logs. Looking at it typed makes it seem like a piece of cake, trust me, it was hard work. Just getting it leveled in some areas was pretty hard. We have two large trees in our yard and they have massive root systems. So ya, that was pretty hard. I took a lunch break then I went and organized the garage for about an hour and then I organized my little desk area in my kitchen for about three hours. I let paper pile up before I file it away. I was able to get rid of not one, but two junk drawers! Now I just have one junk drawer left and it is organized! :) It doesn't actually contain any junk, it has batteries, little post its, push-pins, nails and screws. It's more of a handy drawer than a junk drawer.

I couldn't shut off my brain because I was left thinking about how my yard is going to look when it's done. We want to repaint our plastic shutters darker and get some cheap plastic pots and paint them the same color. I need to get another shower organizer, you know, the kind that you hang from the shower head that holds your shampoo and stuff. I also want to get some bath mats. They have some memory foam ones at Bed Bath and Beyond, (LOVE that store!) and also at Big Lots now. I need to compare prices. The only other thing that I want is a jewelery organizer for a drawer. I have an organizer for my earrings and necklaces that I got from Claire's. It hangs up on the wall though. I would like a different one for my day to day jewelery that I use and take off before bed.

I guess I am up for the day now. I'll eat breakfast and watch some Grey's Anatomy on Netflix till it's time to get ready for church. I guess I'll have a nice Sunday afternoon nap to look forward to. They are the best! :)