Teen Mom. I love this show and I hate this show. Catelynn chose adoption for her daughter and watching her struggle and then thrive and grow up is really crazy. My heart just breaks for these girls. I can see how Farrah has matured some but is still a teenager and you can see that with how she and her mother talk. (Sometimes I'm ashamed to say I still talk to my mom like a teenager. Lord bless her!) Amber is lost. It seems she lacks in communication skills and turns to violence. I wish that she would stay in therapy to learn life skills. Maci doesn't seem to go after what she wants. I think she could have worked things out with the father of her child but she doesn't express herself. It seems the ones that thrive the best have a good support system. Catelynn didn't have the backing of her family for her decision to use adoption but she was smart and used the support groups and does have Tyler (baby's father). They seem to be wise beyond their years.
Jon & Kate Plus 8. They had twin girls first and then they had sextuplets. I have only seen the first season and a couple of episodes into the 2nd. I don't think I will continue to watch it because I know that they end up divorced. You can see from season one that Jon and Kate just don't talk supportive to each other. I fear that since I am on Clomid we might have multiples. It is a risk of taking this medication. I am a lot like Kate. I like things to be a certain way. I like organization and knowing what is going on. When things don't go my way, lets just say it doesn't go well for James. I can be quite a snot. I know this is something I need to work on and it would be best before we have kids. I want to be a loving and supportive wife. I want James to know that I respect him. The best way he will know that is if I SHOW him. I looked up respect and I like the verb form of the word the best.
–verb (used with object)
9.
to hold in esteem or honor: I cannot respect a cheat.
10.
to show regard or consideration for: to respect someone's rights.
11.
to refrain from intruding upon or interfering with: to respect a person's privacy.
To hold in esteem. That may sound over the top, but is it? I don't think so. My husband works hard and provides for me. I have a nice house, the bills are paid, we get to go out to concerts and movies. (I do work so I help out with some of those fun things.) What do I do for him in return? Most days I complain about making dinner and trying to figure out what he wants to eat. I'm also very tired after work. I really have no idea how people do it. I remember my mom always seemed to have an endless supply of energy. She may say she is exhausted but she rarely turns down new projects for the church or helping cook meals for a friend or a church member. She would never sit still. Her hands are always busy. How do you do it Mom?!?!!
I want to be like her. I want to have a clean house and cook nice for my husband and still be active in my friends lives. I don't want to check out. Most days I feel I do just that. "Oh, I'm off work now and I was up since 3, so I'm going to take a nap now. I deserve it." Maybe I do need a nap, but I should limit it to 15-30 mins, not 2 hours. When I wake up I'm grumpy and still tired and don't want to cook or do anything else but watch tv with James. Maybe we need to start turning that tv off. I don't think he would like that too much.
If you are a praying person I would like you to pray for me. I want to be an energetic women of God. Pray that I will be hungry for Him again. I feel like my desire has left me. I feel the weeks just keep passing me by, as if I am in slow motion watching everyone else blaze right on by like they are on fast forward.
James is such a good man. I don't know when that happened. He seems to not get angry as much and is so great with kids. He is outgoing and funny. He can make anyone laugh. He used to be offensive sarcastic funny, (sometimes still is) but now he is really just funny. He knows how to be silly. I love that. He seems to have more patience even with me. Oh he still gets angry don't get me wrong, (especially behind slow drivers) but not like he used to when we were new. I love him so much. We got married when we were 19. We were just kids. I think he has grown up. Lately I feel I am the angry one who gets easily annoyed. I don't want to be like this. He deserves so much more.
Table for 12. So far I have only seen two episodes. I really like this family. They have twins, twins, and then sextuplets. They seem like a team. I love that. I want to be supportive like that. I want my kids to pitch in an be respectful like that. My parents tried to raise us that way. It worked somewhat.
So really I am just in awe of they different dynamics of families and watching how they work.
Sorry that this is on a white background. I copied and pasted the definition and couldn't figure out how to change it back after that part. :( I'm not computer savvy .
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