Yours Forever

I thought I was going to bed, I guess not just yet.

My heart is just overflowing right now. I'm so thankful for so many things. I live a very blessed life.

I just turned on the song "Yours Forever" by Dara Maclean. It is just speaking to me right now. I know on a day to day basis I take all the little blessings for granted. One thing I know is I am forever grateful for God never failing to meet me in the here an now.
Listen to song here.

When I was new to Japan and my marriage was crumbling apart right before me. I wept in the shower and prayed and then got up and did something about it. He gave me strength.

When food had a hold of my life and I was crying over a powdered donut. I know it may seem trivial to some of you. He was there. He showed me that he created food from the earth to nourish me. I didn't need that donut. I needed Him and all that he provides for me.

Now when I'm here at school. I get so stressed over tests and falling behind in class. Yet He is here. Meeting me in my need. Helping me to recall the information as I need it.

To a person who isn't a Christian they could explain all of this away. Say that I was the one who did something, not God.

In my heart of hearts, I know that I myself am incapable of these things.

I didn't carry the ability to change my husbands heart. I have seen him change from angry to loving. He changed my heart from closed off and bitter to open and kind. It seems to have just happened overnight.

I didn't carry the ability to say no to food that was in front of me. It happened when I let go.

My body gets physically exhausted from studying and stress. He meets me time and time again in my need.

I am so in love. One of my greatest fears is that I have all this love for God and what he has done for me, yet I fail to show the world.

"Thank you, for finding me when you did. You changed my life. Now I believe that love is all that I'll ever need. I promise my heart, and all that I am, I'm yours forever my Love."