Ready, Set, Go.

This is it guys, my last blog post before RTC. (Recruit Training Command)

This last week has been pretty crazy. My in-laws came down. They helped paint our wall back and took off some paint outside that James and I were too lazy to do. (Thanks guys! I love you.)

We spent that weekend hiking and went to LuLu's over in Gulf Shores and I can't even remember what else. My brain is all over the place.

This weekend was supposed to be fun and relaxing. Saturday we rented a boat thinking that would be fun. Weather was nice, boat and waves not so much. It was pretty choppy water and our boat was so little. I got seasick within 30 min. No throwing up, but headache and I was gagging like I was about to throw up. Not sure I'll be the best sailor! Haha.

After that I wanted to go to Dunkin Donuts to get an iced coffee. Caffeine helps with headaches right?  I have never ordered from there so I just told the lady I wanted a sweet cold coffee. She said "We don't have that." What!? I see pictures of it on all the commercials. I can't help it if I don't know what it's called. You are supposed to know what I want lady. Customer service, come on. So I didn't get anything. Another waste of time on our last Saturday. James was frustrated with me. I don't feel well and am frustrated that he is frustrated. We went home and took naps. Once we woke up and ate dinner the rest of the night was nice and uneventful.

Sunday I was lazy for the first bit of the day. Made biscuits and gravy for breakfast. Took a nap, then I got to work. I cleaned out the deep freeze, the refrigerator, the closets, the shed. Pretty much everything. Then James took me to dinner out on Pensacola Beach. After dinner we just took the long way home and drove out to Santa Rosa beach and Navarre beach. It was nice and relaxing, exactly what I wanted. I teared up a little just thinking about how much I'm going to miss him and our life here in Pensacola.

I know this is what I want to do. I just can't help thinking "What are you doing Audra? Life is great and  here you are throwing a job in the mix that is taking you away from everything you know."

When I tell people I'm joining the Navy one of the first things people ask is "What does your husband think?" I honestly don't know what he thinks. When I first talked about it a LONGGGGG time ago, he was against it. It wasn't even a possibility with how big I was anyway. Once I lost the weight and made him aware that I'm serious and I really want to join he was on board. He also wanted to make sure that this is what I want to do. I don't want to be separated from him, but it's part of it. I am pretty sure he isn't going to like being alone either. No one will be here to make him grilled cheese sandwiches.

I do know that he will like that he gets to have to whole bed to himself instead of the little sliver I give him now. He will be able to watch sports and fake wrestling anytime he wants. He can eat an entire bag of chips in one sitting without me saying something. I'm pretty sure he will enjoy all of that.

I just found out that I have to be at the recruiters office tomorrow morning at 0700. I know we can't even check into our hotel until 1530 (3:30pm). All tomorrow is, is just getting me to New Orleans. I was really hoping James could just drive me and we could leave around 1100. Now I have to wake up early for basically nothing. Welcome to the Military??? Wednesday I have to wake up at like 0345 and eat breakfast before 0430. The bus takes us to the base and we process. Then my flight to Great Lakes (where RTC is.) won't be until late Wednesday night cause they want you to be exhausted when they yell in your face. I will have to stay awake all Wednesday night and all Thursday until they tell me I can sleep on Thursday night. Please, please, please, please pray for me. I'm going to hate my life. I'm going to cry, I'm going to be exhausted. I know that a lot of this will be mental. This will probably be the hardest thing I have ever done.

Everyone says the first day is the hardest day and the first two weeks are the hardest weeks. After that they say that it's fun. I'm not sure if their definition of fun will be the same as mine.

I'm worried about making friends. I'm 27, not 17. I'm worried about being put into a leadership position and not being able to take the pressure. I'm worried of falling asleep. I love my naps ya'll. Please pray for these areas specifically.

There is so much more I could say, but I think I'll get off here and update you guys once I am a United States Sailor! I'm going to be so proud of myself. I can't wait until James and my dad see me in my uniform. I'm going to cry, happy proud tears of course.

I love you all!
I want to give shout outs
To my mom -Mom you are an amazing women. I love you so much and am so grateful you are in my life. I hope to be the women of God you are.
To my dad -Dad I love you. I still think of myself as your little girl. I hope to make you proud. I am proud of you and proud to be your daughter.
To my love -James, you are my partner in life and love. You are the first person I want to tell about my day. You are my best friend. I am so glad you are my husband. I am grateful to you for letting me take this adventure. Grateful that we are in this adventure together. I love you.

2 Kings 6:16 "Don't be afraid," the prophet answered. "Those who are with us are more than those who are with them." 

Isaiah 40: 29-31 He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youth grow tired and weary, and young me will stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. 

Joshua 1:9 "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go."