I am deleting my facebook account. I think I am going to be in mourning. Over the past two-three years facebook has meant a lot to me. I have watched my nieces grow, friends graduate college, some had babies. I have connected with family that I never really got to grow up with. All of this thanks to Facebook. :)
The downside that I'm scared, even embarrassed, to say is the reason I am leaving facebook. I became addicted. Truly addicted. I felt it was necessary for me to keep it to stay in touch with family while I was in Japan. Sometimes the time zone difference was too much to always call or Skype, Facebook was handy. I would get on as soon as I woke up, keep it on all day. When I would leave the house as soon as I got back I would be on to see what everyone else had done or if anyone had commented on my status. I love when I see a little red notification flag! It is so exciting to me. It became unhealthy though. I began comparing myself to others in unhealthy ways. I still do.
Most of you know that I am a Christian. Meaning I have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ. (I know your thinking, "Oh great, here she brings Jesus into it!" Bear with me though, this is my blog after all.) Some might call me religious, and I times I am ashamed to say that is true. Jesus however was not religious. He IS love, he has called me TO love. 1st John 3:18 "Dear children, let us not love with words or speech but with actions and in truth." (I love this entire chapter)
You all know what it is like to have relationships. You have them with your friends, family, co-workers, spouse and so on. Each relationship is different and special. Some are more pleasant, some estranged, some are intimate but the connection is there. In order to have a good working relationship there is always communication. This is where I succeeded in my facebook relationships and failed in my real life ones with Jesus, my husband, even family. I have shared most all of me for the world and not with my savior or the ones he placed closest to me in my life.
So what does Jesus have to do with me giving up facebook? Unfortunately when I first realized I had a problem, nothing. 1st Corinthians 10:31 says "So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God." Basically everything I do matters to him. I realized that my life hasn't been glorifying him. It is my hope that through this time without facebook, (I am not sure how long I will be off.) I will get to know my savior and glorify him in all I do. I will get to know myself, my husband, my local friends, and my family better.
Even as I am typing this now I feel so silly. How could I be addicted to facebook? What is so wrong with seeing what everyone is up to? What is so wrong with telling everyone about my day? Really there is nothing wrong with it. It seems I have just confused the importance of things in my life. I feel this is something that I should have done a couple of months ago but didn't have the strength to.
I guess that is all I have to say for now. Side note: Please, all of my grammatically correct friends, look over the misuse of commas, misspellings, and other errors. This is me we are talking about after all.
I think as humans, we all get caught up in the world. But, I can honestly say that there are very few people on this Earth that I know with a true heart. You are one of them. I think you are a great example of God's love in everything you do. And remember, God loves you, even if you facebook. Think about it and when you are ready to come back, we'll all be there, looking for your words of encouragement. Facebook can be a great way to spread the word of God and positive thoughts. Good luck Audra. Of course, you know my number. :) Yeah, not sure why it's popping up as GWFRG. LAME!!! lol
ReplyDeleteHaha, GWFRG. :) That's funny that it pops up like that.
ReplyDeleteI totally agree that God loves me even if I facebook. :p After reading that paragraph again it doesn't sound right. A little judgmental, not how I meant. I could glorify God in facebook and so can others for that matter. For now though it has been something that has taken too much of my time. When I feel ready I will be back.
Also (to anyone who reads this comment) this really was not to be made into anything religious. If anyone took it that way you missed my point. It's a personal decision to give up facebook that I have made public with my reasons. Nothing more. This blog is just my thoughts on things. That's it.