Today was such a good day!
I went to Pilates this morning with a friend and a coworker. Got my butt kicked, in a good way.
When I got home, took a shower, and put on make-up for the first time this month. (It melts off and I have been breaking out, and it isn't cheap.) I told James that I wanted to go for a drive.
We drove for a little over two hours just to nowhere and back. Down some county roads talking about dream houses and the normal stuff we talk about when we are driving. We had the dogs with us. It was raining and it made it more of a family thing, haha. Yes, our dogs are our children.
When we got back we stopped at the redbox. Got a couple of movies. We watched the first one then I cooked dinner. I made these spicy apple-glazed meatballs. I got the recipe from a magazine. They were pretty good. While I was prepping and cooking, all the ingredients were coming together, I put Jack Johnson on Pandora and felt like I was in a movie. Dancing around and cooking. Made mashed potatoes for James and broccoli for me. We sat down and I had a glass of my favorite moscato. Music was playing and we were talking and eating. It was a movie.
After dinner we took the dogs to the beach on base. Came home, rinsed off and now I'm finishing this post while James is rinsing off. Going to watch Red Tails and enjoy the rest of the night.
I'm so thankful for days like today. It makes my life a fairy tale.
Thursday, July 19, 2012
Friday, July 13, 2012
Dear Audra
You are doing this! Even though last week was really heard due to PMS cravings and last night you gave in and ate some pasta, you are still on the right path.
The reason you no longer eat starchy carbs such as potatoes, rice, pasta, and bread is because you don't process them as well as others. You want to take a nap within 30 minutes of eating them. You have a black streak line on your neck, a sign of diabetes, at the age of 26.
Feel empowered by your choice to get healthy, not defeated.
Your portion sizes were out of control before. You know we are still working on that. It is hard enough to not eat potatoes. You are doing great though.
You have set some goals for yourself and you can reach them. It is just going to take time. Probably a lot of frustration and tears too.
As you are writing this I see you crying because you really really so badly want those white powdered donuts that James bought yesterday. You know that you CAN eat them. You are choosing not to eat them. You don't eat that way anymore, Audra. I DON'T EAT THAT WAY ANYMORE.
When you lose 10 pounds you WILL get that pedicure.
When you lose 20 pounds you WILL get a heart monitor.
When you lose 30 pounds you WILL get a new pair of tennis shoes.
When you lose 40 pounds you WILL get laser hair removal.
When you lose anything greater you WILL be getting new clothes.
Audra, this is not just about losing weight, this is not about looking great, though those are great motivations. You are making healthy decisions. You want to be there for your kids one day. You want to be able to have kids and carry them to 40 weeks healthy! You want to be proud of yourself for once.
I see you bawling your eyes out knowing that this is a turning point. Stop crying, wipe those eyes, feel empowered.
You know in your heart you are doing this for you. Your husband loves you the way you are. Your friends love you the way you are. You even love yourself.
You have enjoyed every dinner party that you ate plates of pasta and potatoes. You had a blast drinking those high calorie alcoholic beverages. You had a lot of fun getting up to 196 pounds. You are who you are. Though you may lose weight, never forget that you have loved yourself along the way. Your friends have loved you all along. Your husband has loved you all along. Your savior has loved you all along.
Even though you are not all alone in this fight to get healthy, you have friends that walk with you and a husband who will exercise with you. It is your responsibility to put the fork down. You are the one who is going to have to say no thanks to potatoes or that bread basket. No one else can do that for you.
I am doing this for me. I am doing this to be healthy. I am doing this because I love myself.
The reason you no longer eat starchy carbs such as potatoes, rice, pasta, and bread is because you don't process them as well as others. You want to take a nap within 30 minutes of eating them. You have a black streak line on your neck, a sign of diabetes, at the age of 26.
Feel empowered by your choice to get healthy, not defeated.
Your portion sizes were out of control before. You know we are still working on that. It is hard enough to not eat potatoes. You are doing great though.
You have set some goals for yourself and you can reach them. It is just going to take time. Probably a lot of frustration and tears too.
As you are writing this I see you crying because you really really so badly want those white powdered donuts that James bought yesterday. You know that you CAN eat them. You are choosing not to eat them. You don't eat that way anymore, Audra. I DON'T EAT THAT WAY ANYMORE.
When you lose 10 pounds you WILL get that pedicure.
When you lose 20 pounds you WILL get a heart monitor.
When you lose 30 pounds you WILL get a new pair of tennis shoes.
When you lose 40 pounds you WILL get laser hair removal.
When you lose anything greater you WILL be getting new clothes.
Audra, this is not just about losing weight, this is not about looking great, though those are great motivations. You are making healthy decisions. You want to be there for your kids one day. You want to be able to have kids and carry them to 40 weeks healthy! You want to be proud of yourself for once.
I see you bawling your eyes out knowing that this is a turning point. Stop crying, wipe those eyes, feel empowered.
You know in your heart you are doing this for you. Your husband loves you the way you are. Your friends love you the way you are. You even love yourself.
You have enjoyed every dinner party that you ate plates of pasta and potatoes. You had a blast drinking those high calorie alcoholic beverages. You had a lot of fun getting up to 196 pounds. You are who you are. Though you may lose weight, never forget that you have loved yourself along the way. Your friends have loved you all along. Your husband has loved you all along. Your savior has loved you all along.
Even though you are not all alone in this fight to get healthy, you have friends that walk with you and a husband who will exercise with you. It is your responsibility to put the fork down. You are the one who is going to have to say no thanks to potatoes or that bread basket. No one else can do that for you.
I am doing this for me. I am doing this to be healthy. I am doing this because I love myself.
Saturday, June 16, 2012
Here's the Dealio
This month I am being observed by the fertility specialist. I went in for blood work and an ultrasound. I start a home ovulation kit soon and then go back for another ultrasound and more blood work.
When we first met with the doctor all we did was sit and talk. He suggested I go on the Atkins diet. I guess this is a common suggestion for women with PCOS. It has to do with insulin levels and such. I was not to pleased with this, still not for that matter. I love breads and pastas and sweets and sweet snacks. I came home from that meeting thinking I'll just eat what we have in the house and then be careful about what I bring back in the house.
Well today I went for a walk with a friend who is seeing the same doctor. She has done several months of treatment and is in a 2nd round of IUI. Basically they take the seed from the man and wash it and put it in the women at the best time and hope for a baby. That procedure is more costly than I thought it was. $850 for each time it is done. Yikes. That may not sound like much to some of you, but for us at this point in our lives we could maybe squeeze by and have it done twice tops. We are here for another year so that still gives me time to just keep doing the fertility drugs, they offer something similar to Clomid. They will monitor me and tell us when to do our "homework."
This discouraged me and encouraged me at the same time. Discouraged because money doesn't grow on any trees I've ever seen; encouraged me to do EVERYTHING in my power to make myself healthy. So today I am getting rid of all the dry pasta and bread and tortillas. James is going to have a junk food cabinet that is out of site from the pantry. I plan to put a note on it that says "$850 for one time." Heres to hoping I don't raid it...
I just prepped some taco soup that is full of protein. I have cooked frozen chicken on hand, hard boiled eggs, and cheese sticks. On the Atkins diet you aren't supposed to have fruit or sugar but thats why I'm not doing the Atkins diet. I am still going to eat fruit. When something needs sugar I will be using sugar, not a substitue. I also get a late night chocolate craving after I get off of work at night. I bought some dove dark chocolates. One or two pieces should fix it and I don't think it will do too much damage. I mean I'm already nearly 200 lbs anyway, and it's better than an overflowing plate full of nilla wafers with peanut butter. (ugh..I love that.)
Most of my night meals will just consist of a meat and veggies. On work nights I have the taco soup ready made in cute little tupperware containers. I'll pack a salad with that. I can see me getting bored with this quickly. Thank goodness it is summer time and veggies are so good right now and so good on the grill. When I forget to plan I'll head to Wendy's and get a cup of chili and a small salad.
If any of you have any simple recipes with low carbs let me know. I still plan to have oatmeal for breakfast and am going to buy the whole wheat low carb version of tortillas.
For now that's the plan Jan, that's the dealio.
When we first met with the doctor all we did was sit and talk. He suggested I go on the Atkins diet. I guess this is a common suggestion for women with PCOS. It has to do with insulin levels and such. I was not to pleased with this, still not for that matter. I love breads and pastas and sweets and sweet snacks. I came home from that meeting thinking I'll just eat what we have in the house and then be careful about what I bring back in the house.
Well today I went for a walk with a friend who is seeing the same doctor. She has done several months of treatment and is in a 2nd round of IUI. Basically they take the seed from the man and wash it and put it in the women at the best time and hope for a baby. That procedure is more costly than I thought it was. $850 for each time it is done. Yikes. That may not sound like much to some of you, but for us at this point in our lives we could maybe squeeze by and have it done twice tops. We are here for another year so that still gives me time to just keep doing the fertility drugs, they offer something similar to Clomid. They will monitor me and tell us when to do our "homework."
This discouraged me and encouraged me at the same time. Discouraged because money doesn't grow on any trees I've ever seen; encouraged me to do EVERYTHING in my power to make myself healthy. So today I am getting rid of all the dry pasta and bread and tortillas. James is going to have a junk food cabinet that is out of site from the pantry. I plan to put a note on it that says "$850 for one time." Heres to hoping I don't raid it...
I just prepped some taco soup that is full of protein. I have cooked frozen chicken on hand, hard boiled eggs, and cheese sticks. On the Atkins diet you aren't supposed to have fruit or sugar but thats why I'm not doing the Atkins diet. I am still going to eat fruit. When something needs sugar I will be using sugar, not a substitue. I also get a late night chocolate craving after I get off of work at night. I bought some dove dark chocolates. One or two pieces should fix it and I don't think it will do too much damage. I mean I'm already nearly 200 lbs anyway, and it's better than an overflowing plate full of nilla wafers with peanut butter. (ugh..I love that.)
Most of my night meals will just consist of a meat and veggies. On work nights I have the taco soup ready made in cute little tupperware containers. I'll pack a salad with that. I can see me getting bored with this quickly. Thank goodness it is summer time and veggies are so good right now and so good on the grill. When I forget to plan I'll head to Wendy's and get a cup of chili and a small salad.
If any of you have any simple recipes with low carbs let me know. I still plan to have oatmeal for breakfast and am going to buy the whole wheat low carb version of tortillas.
For now that's the plan Jan, that's the dealio.
Friday, June 1, 2012
The inner 5 year old
Yesterday was a great day. James is off work on Tuesdays, Wednesdays and Thursdays. Thursdays lately have started to feel like Saturdays used to.
I reminded James on Wednesday night that Thursday was going to be a date night since the movie, "The Lucky One" was playing on base and at $3 a ticket you really can't beat that.
James asked what I had going on that day and I mentioned needing to get a couple of things done. He knew that it was date night, but he figured we could have a date day too! I get so excited when he plans something. I am more of the social planner of the house.
James got done with a morning appointment. I was finishing up making homemade bread! (My mom taught me how when she was here.) I got ready for the day and left the dough in the bowl to rise all day.
James asked me if I had a dollar. I did. I sort of knew we were going to head out to Pensacola beach at that point since it has a toll bridge to get there. We went out to the beach and just kept driving. We drove the road all the way out until we were in Santa Rosa county. It was more secluded and the water was very turquoise. I saw a small family of dolphins. I screamed in the car and shouted "Dolphins!" I then began to clap like a little excited girl. James just shook his head and smiled at me.
Later that night we had a fabulous dinner at home. Grilled pork chops, grilled shrimp, a salad, my homemade bread and sweet tea. Mmm-mmm-good!
On our way to the movies there was a storm brewing. There were gray clouds all around, yet we were still under a circle of blue sky. Up ahead I saw a rainbow! I clapped my hands yet again and shouted "Rainbow! Do you see it?"
James again said "Yes I see it, but im not jumping out of my seat and clapping about it." Boy he really makes me laugh, even if it's at myself.
Then yet again I saw something exciting, a little baby fox by a stop sign eating a bird or something. I said "Oh! Look its a baby fox! And he's eating something!"
James then was like "Look! An old brick wall with ivy growing on it!"
By this time we were both laughing. What can I say, things like dolphins and rainbows and baby fox excite me! I felt like God sent them for me to show me that he, and his beauty are everywhere. I don't think there's anything wrong with clapping and getting excited about God's handy-work.
So thank you Lord for never ceasing to fascinate me and give me something to squeal like the girl you created.
I hope you all find something to squeal about today!
-With Love
I reminded James on Wednesday night that Thursday was going to be a date night since the movie, "The Lucky One" was playing on base and at $3 a ticket you really can't beat that.
James asked what I had going on that day and I mentioned needing to get a couple of things done. He knew that it was date night, but he figured we could have a date day too! I get so excited when he plans something. I am more of the social planner of the house.
James got done with a morning appointment. I was finishing up making homemade bread! (My mom taught me how when she was here.) I got ready for the day and left the dough in the bowl to rise all day.
James asked me if I had a dollar. I did. I sort of knew we were going to head out to Pensacola beach at that point since it has a toll bridge to get there. We went out to the beach and just kept driving. We drove the road all the way out until we were in Santa Rosa county. It was more secluded and the water was very turquoise. I saw a small family of dolphins. I screamed in the car and shouted "Dolphins!" I then began to clap like a little excited girl. James just shook his head and smiled at me.
Later that night we had a fabulous dinner at home. Grilled pork chops, grilled shrimp, a salad, my homemade bread and sweet tea. Mmm-mmm-good!
On our way to the movies there was a storm brewing. There were gray clouds all around, yet we were still under a circle of blue sky. Up ahead I saw a rainbow! I clapped my hands yet again and shouted "Rainbow! Do you see it?"
James again said "Yes I see it, but im not jumping out of my seat and clapping about it." Boy he really makes me laugh, even if it's at myself.
Then yet again I saw something exciting, a little baby fox by a stop sign eating a bird or something. I said "Oh! Look its a baby fox! And he's eating something!"
James then was like "Look! An old brick wall with ivy growing on it!"
By this time we were both laughing. What can I say, things like dolphins and rainbows and baby fox excite me! I felt like God sent them for me to show me that he, and his beauty are everywhere. I don't think there's anything wrong with clapping and getting excited about God's handy-work.
So thank you Lord for never ceasing to fascinate me and give me something to squeal like the girl you created.
I hope you all find something to squeal about today!
-With Love
Thursday, May 24, 2012
Holy Smokes!
I know it's in the water, not just the local water. No I'm not pregnant but we received a referral to a clinic out in town. I'm super excited. I now know of at least 6 people who just announced their pregnancies this past week. I'm genuinely excited for everyone. I know that some people think I would be jealous or disappointed, but truly I have baby fever! For everyone!
I am also anxiously awaiting the list to see if James will be promoted to E6. He thought he had it last time and was pretty bummed when he didn't make it. This time he isn't letting himself get excited. I can't help but get my hopes up for him. They release the list on facebook so I'm on his account quite a bit lately.
I'm so excited summer has arrived. We already spent a week at the beach with James' parents and with mine. My brother and his family are coming down soon so there will be more time at the beach. I am truly blessed to have an awesome family.
James and I will be celebrating our seven year anniversary June 17th. That's just seems crazy. Seven years! What?!!
We are going to try and go home for the 4th of July this year. That is a holiday that screams family bar-b-que. We also want to meet our nephew Bentley! (My brother Alexis' son. In case you're wondering.) He came home just over a week ago!
In case I don't talk to you on the regular, or update this blog, I hope you have an amazing summer! If you can stop by Pensacola or want to see the white sandy beaches of Perdido Key shoot me an email. I would love to see any of you. We have a spare room!
-With love
I am also anxiously awaiting the list to see if James will be promoted to E6. He thought he had it last time and was pretty bummed when he didn't make it. This time he isn't letting himself get excited. I can't help but get my hopes up for him. They release the list on facebook so I'm on his account quite a bit lately.
I'm so excited summer has arrived. We already spent a week at the beach with James' parents and with mine. My brother and his family are coming down soon so there will be more time at the beach. I am truly blessed to have an awesome family.
James and I will be celebrating our seven year anniversary June 17th. That's just seems crazy. Seven years! What?!!
We are going to try and go home for the 4th of July this year. That is a holiday that screams family bar-b-que. We also want to meet our nephew Bentley! (My brother Alexis' son. In case you're wondering.) He came home just over a week ago!
In case I don't talk to you on the regular, or update this blog, I hope you have an amazing summer! If you can stop by Pensacola or want to see the white sandy beaches of Perdido Key shoot me an email. I would love to see any of you. We have a spare room!
-With love
Monday, April 16, 2012
Monday Melody
Happy Monday! I know you're prolly thinking get out of here you cheerful girl. Mondays are the pits.
Not anymore for me. James just switched to weekends so he works friday nights, Saturdays, Sundays and Mondays till noon.
This morning I woke up, ate breakfast, prayed for my cousins (yup, all 10 of you guys! Feel loved.), Bentley, my parents, and to make it through my workout without throwing up.
Well now the workout it over, and I did not throw up! It is lead by the chaplin on base. It is supposedly similar to Insanity, I don't know since I have never done Insanity. I'm so glad I get to do it with a group of people and for free though. If i had to do it by myself I would definitely give up. I'm still the slowest person and dont get through all the stuff without taking a break. That's a bit embarrassing, but they are all active duty. (That's what I tell myself to make it ok that I can't keep up.)
During this workout I regretted eating breakfast, even though it was an hour before hand. I also kept saying the "f" word in my head. Sorry mom! I knew I shouldn't have said that in my head so then I starting praying to just make it through and I did! I'm ALIVE! Hahaha, ok so I think I'm pretty funny.
Now I'm going to shower and catch up on some of my shows before James gets home. I hope you have a stupendous Monday!
Sunday, March 25, 2012
February- March happenings
Hello readers! I hope you have been well.
Last month was the month for babies. One of my cousins and my sister-in-law had their babies on February 15th. I also had another cousin announce her pregnancy. Yay for babies! My nephew Bentley was born prematurely at 27 weeks. He is growing stronger everyday, yet everyday is still a battle. Please keep him in your prayers.
Last week the unthinkable happened. I got a call to fill in as a dental assistant. I don't think it will turn into a job as the assistant he has, has been with him from day one. However I do think they will call me if she ever wants a vacation or is sick or something. I swear he was the nicest dentist I have ever worked for. He might have been frustrated but he never showed it. He was so patient. I feel beyond blessed to have filled in. They called me from my resume that I turned into them when we first moved here over a year and a half ago. Not to mention that my paycheck for 3 days was more than my last one that was for 2 weeks. (I dont get very many hours, but still..) It was a great experience and made me realize that I do want to be a dental assistant again one day.
I think about volunteering, however I know that I want to be a stay at home mom until our kid goes to kindergarten. That is pretty important to me. (No, I'm not even pregnant. We are still trying.) We have just under a year and a half left here. I am happy where I am at the gym now. This fill in position was just what I needed to give me hope about the future though. Maybe I will have to be settled and James may be retired from the military but I know that I can do it. I can and will be a dental assistant in the future. It feels great knowing that.
Today we rearranged furniture! I'm so excited! I have never liked the way we had it but it seemed like our only option at the time. Now we have two rooms instead of one giant room. We got a dinning table off of craigslist and I wanted the carpets cleaned and furniture arranged before we brought it in. I love how it feels now. Much more like home. Now I can have company over and everyone should be able to have a seat! Mission accomplished.
Well I hope you have a great week! Maybe I'll be back before the month is up!
Last month was the month for babies. One of my cousins and my sister-in-law had their babies on February 15th. I also had another cousin announce her pregnancy. Yay for babies! My nephew Bentley was born prematurely at 27 weeks. He is growing stronger everyday, yet everyday is still a battle. Please keep him in your prayers.
Last week the unthinkable happened. I got a call to fill in as a dental assistant. I don't think it will turn into a job as the assistant he has, has been with him from day one. However I do think they will call me if she ever wants a vacation or is sick or something. I swear he was the nicest dentist I have ever worked for. He might have been frustrated but he never showed it. He was so patient. I feel beyond blessed to have filled in. They called me from my resume that I turned into them when we first moved here over a year and a half ago. Not to mention that my paycheck for 3 days was more than my last one that was for 2 weeks. (I dont get very many hours, but still..) It was a great experience and made me realize that I do want to be a dental assistant again one day.
I think about volunteering, however I know that I want to be a stay at home mom until our kid goes to kindergarten. That is pretty important to me. (No, I'm not even pregnant. We are still trying.) We have just under a year and a half left here. I am happy where I am at the gym now. This fill in position was just what I needed to give me hope about the future though. Maybe I will have to be settled and James may be retired from the military but I know that I can do it. I can and will be a dental assistant in the future. It feels great knowing that.
Today we rearranged furniture! I'm so excited! I have never liked the way we had it but it seemed like our only option at the time. Now we have two rooms instead of one giant room. We got a dinning table off of craigslist and I wanted the carpets cleaned and furniture arranged before we brought it in. I love how it feels now. Much more like home. Now I can have company over and everyone should be able to have a seat! Mission accomplished.
Well I hope you have a great week! Maybe I'll be back before the month is up!
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