Freestyle writing entry

I am sitting on my couch right now looking at my green wall. We are allowed to paint on base housing but have to paint it back so we only went with one wall. My mom just called. They are coming for a visit at the end of the month. I went to ITT (information, tours &tickets) yesterday to see about tubing down blackwater river and about fishing charter boats. I love vacation and days off. If I could I would never work another day in my life. I am so lazy. This is not a good thing. I feel like if I were to die today my tombstone would read "Lazy girl who really loved her sleep." I guess that is a bit morbid to think about. I am a morbid thinker. I think about death more than I talk about it cause talking about all the what if so and so were to die makes people uncomfortable. What if we all lived our lives based on what would be written in our obituaries and only had one sentence written on your Tombstone? What would you want to leave people thinking about? Sometimes I really care about what people think. Other times I trick myself with thinking, "Who is this punk?" but I think at the end of the day I still want that punk to like me. I love my husband. He knows me better than anyone I think. What I like most is I can truly be myself. I'm not sure thats a good thing. I am not as nice and people seem to think I am. He knows that. I like that he knows that and still loves me anyway. Haha, he just called and asked if I wanted to walk the dogs...ok, back from walking the dogs. He is watering the yard now. We did a lot of yard work this past week. We were able to get 4 large bushes and 5 grassy plants for free from our friends who just bought a house. (Thank you Brooke and Charlie! We had fun, or at least I did, haha!) Their house was a bit over landscaped and mine had nothing at all. They helped us and we helped them. We also painted our shutters. We bought some red paint from Wal-mart and the guy had no idea what he was doing. It looked almost orange. I painted one set and decided that I hated it. We ended up spray painting them cause the paint looked better and it was the faster lazier way to get things done in the heat of Florida. I tried to see if we could take them down before we painted them but they were breaking off and I did not want to have to buy replacement shutters. My mom said they were cheap but 4 sets from online would have been about $160. If this was OUR house then I know that would seem cheap, but some other military family will move in after we move out so....I'm not buying the shutters. So now you prolly guessed it...we have spray paint on our house. James thinks it will come off with a little bit of sandpaper. I hope it does, I'll try that on Friday. That is my next day off. It is too hot and I am too tired to try when I get off from work. I was able to switch my day off this week from Thursday to Friday. That is good cause we are going to a Jason Aldean concert on Thursday night and I am not going to want to wake up at 3am the next day. I need to start listening to more of his music so I can sing along to all the songs. I know a lot of them but I need a refresher. Concerts are way more fun when you can sing along. I think we will listen to him as we fall asleep tonight. Then tomorrow I will steal James' iPod and start listening in my car. ;) Ok well James is wanting me to make him a grilled cheese so I'm going to go do that. Have a great week.

Happy 235th Birthday America!

Happy 4th of July everybody!

I hope everyone has had a safe and fun weekend so far and will keep that going tonight. We had a blast last night at a friends house and will have more fun today at another friends house. I love having friends. (Who doesn't right?!) Being a military spouse it isn't always easy to pick up and make new friends. Little did I know how small the military was and that we would have some of the same friends at every duty station we have been at. It is nice to see those familiar faces and have those shared experiences.

Last year for the forth we were back home in Missouri. We had just been house hunting in Florida for two weeks and then went home for two weeks before James had to report for duty. We had so much fun setting off our own fireworks. My mom of course made fantastic food and dessert. James had so much fun being the big kid with my nephew and setting all the fireworks off. I will never forget the look on Emma's face after he set off a lady bug firework. It spun around so quickly and flew up into the air with a screeching scream she turned around and ran to her mom with a horrified look on her face. It was so funny. And no I'm not a horrible person for finding humor in my nieces terror. Everybody thought is was hilarious. Plus she was only about to turn three and was and is still adorable.

So that was last year. James and I have been back in America for over a year. What is really crazy is that we have been together in the same bed EVERY night for over a year. Even when he has duty he has never had an overnight watch. When we were in Virginia every eight days he would have to sleep on the boat. It has been kind of weird adjusting to being together so much.

James is an instructor at A school down here. He get's these guys right after boot camp and teaches them everything about being an AO (Aviation Ordnance.) James is an AO. He worked on the flight deck when we was on the aircraft carrier. AOs pretty much build and maintain the ordnance (bombs) until it is time to hand it over to the guys who load it onto the planes and then the planes distribute it to unknown terrorists around the world. Haha, Happy Birthday America! Right!?

James really loves being an instructor. He gets these kids for just a short amount of time and makes a real connection with them. He becomes friends with most of them after they graduate on facebook. He gets emails if they have questions about anything once they get to the fleet. Seeing all of his little AOs out there in the fleet really makes him miss being out there. As much as he loves being an instructor he is still a sailor and I posted before that sailors are meant to be out there sailing . It is in his blood now. It's in mine too.

We are both already anxious about where our next adventure will be. We still have a full two years left here and we are already ready for some new action. I am already looking at other base websites to see what is out there. Crazy. I used to think I would be horrible at being a military wife. Now I don't think I will do so well when it comes time for him to retire. Not having to move. I LOVE moving. I also am a crazy wife who likes when my husband has a duty day. WHAT?!! Yup, I said it. I like having a day off to myself where I don't have to cook for the both of us and I get to watch whatever I want on tv or I get to go to bed really early and not feel bad about having spent little time with my husband that day. My friends say that will change when I have kids. I'm sure it will. I LOVE my husband please don't misunderstand. I love having time to myself though too. So does he. Usually after a duty day I cook my best meal and make him feel good about coming home. I do miss him when he has duty or when he is deployed. I  just feel refreshed after having time to myself.

We are still learning how to be together after six years of marriage. I don't think we will stop learning how to be together. I hear couples who have been together over half of their lives who have the same discussions that James and I do. I find that comforting. I like knowing that there will always be some give and take and adjustments to get used to. Otherwise things feel mundane. I like excitement and passion and I like days off too. :)

Feelin Pretty

I just got my make-up done at the Estee Lauder counter at the Nex. They were giving away some FREE samples! I feel pretty so I had James take my picture. :)

He's Got This

Last night I went to bed feeling pretty crappy about myself. I think most women feel this way from time to time. I have been feeling like I'm in a rut, sometimes it seems spiritual, sometimes it has to do with my job and sometimes it has to do with my body. Last night it was dealing with my body. I spent about 20 minutes tweezing my face. Yup, not just my eyebrows but my little mustache and under my chin. I have gross man hair growing and it makes me feel so unattractive.  It is hardly noticeable but I can feel it and also have ingrown hairs that look like giant pimples. Not to mention I weighed myself yesterday and I am a mere four pounds away from being my heaviest weight. I had lost about 15 pounds three years ago and kept it off for a long time. Well this year it has been creeping back up on me. I figured some would since we are back in the states and driving instead of walking everywhere.
I go through little spurts of exercising, the thing is, it really isn't the exercising that gets to me. I am pretty active just from work and housework. I do need to do more than I have been but I don't feel that is my downside. My downside is food. I love to eat. I eat when I am bored. I eat more than my husband and he is nearly and entire foot taller than me.
Anywho I did not want this entry to be all about how crappy I feel. I went to work this morning and heard two really great songs.

The first one was this: http://videolyric.com/music-clips/steven-curtis-chapman-do-everything-lyrics-and-video-clip.html

That one is bad audio, but it has all the words typed out. This one from his site is better. http://stevencurtischapman.com/  Just click play.

I love this little part of the song:

Little stuff big stuff in between stuff
God sees it all the same
And while I may not know you I bet I know you
Wonder sometimes does it matter at all
We’ll let me remind you it all matters just as long as you do

Everything you do to the glory of the One who made you
Cause He made you
To do every little thing that you do to bring a smile to His face
And tell the story of grace with every move that you make
And every little thing that you do

I often feel I am going through my life and thats just it. I work, I nap, I clean, I eat, I watch tv. What does it matter to anyone? I have been physically drained since moving to Florida. I think it's the heat, maybe it is health related. I'm not sure. I feel so lazy and sometimes wonder if I'm disappointing God by taking a nap. I feel I am sometimes, I know that I am disappointing myself and my husband. I really want to volunteer at the dental clinic just to get my hands on experience back but I am SO tired.
This song this morning was refreshing to hear. "Little stuff, big stuff, in between stuff." It all does matter. So even if I don't have the energy to volunteer it's ok. When I do have the energy to do big stuff or little stuff as long as I am working as though it is just for HIS glory is all that matters. So today I worked hard and I am hoping to get my bathroom clean and a load of laundry started before I go down for my nap. I am praising God today. He made this day, he made me. If he wants to give me extra energy for his ministry he will. I can use the energy he has already given me and still glorify Him. Yes, I do plan on glorifying him with my clean toilet and having clean clothes to wear to work tomorrow.

The other song that I hear made me tear up a little. It is by Chris Tomlin
http://www.vevo.com/watch/chris-tomlin/i-lift-my-hands/US82Y1100034

It is just an amazing song. I am crying right now. He is a faithful God. No matter what I pour out to Him, he can and does handle it. I know when I talk to Him things WILL BE and ARE ok. He is in control. No matter if we are at war, if I am worried about paying bills, or even being able to have a baby. HE is in control and when I surrender my desire to Him I know it is good. He is faithful. This desire I have he knows about it. If and when he sees to make it happen it will. He is God after all. Songs like this encourage me and remind me of that. I don't need to be so wrapped up in my own problems because He has got it. He has got it under control.

Things I Love

There are so many things I want to blog about right now it was hard for me to decide what topic to go with. I stumbled upon another blog and on the side they have listed all the things that they love. It made me happy to read that and then I started thinking of all the things that I love and I wanted to share. Happiness and smiles are contagious.

James and I celebrated our six year anniversary on the 17th. That makes me happy. I am so in love with my husband. He is an amazing man. He doesn't even see it.

I love Jesus, of course, you knew that was coming right? haha, What can I say about Him, He is my savior. The one who makes me me. Without him I am lost.

I love my family. My parents are awesome. My brother and his family just came for a visit. I love them so much. My nieces are getting so big. Anna was shy at first but then she was so loving. Emma loves everything. Your shirt, your hair, your car, your m&m's, the beach. They both have the best laughs in the world. I love my nephew Neal. He is fun and responsible and a real genuine good kid.

I love it when I discover new music. Right now I am really into mellow sounding carefree voices. I like Nora Jones, Jason Mraz and I just discovered Priscilla Ahn. James has more on his iPod then I do. There is another guy that fits into my category that I can't think of right now.

I love my dogs, they are smelly and look sad almost all of the time but they just love me and are so lovable.

I love puppies.

I love Americas Funniest Home Videos. That show makes me laugh so hard. I love when they do the music montages to all the people falling down or getting hit. I nearly start crying it is so funny.

I love Praise and Worship music and singing with all my heart. It is so therapeutic and just fun.
I love it when I laugh so hard I nearly cry.
I love it when people laugh around me.
I love naps.
I love cookies.
I love my moms cooking.
I love rainy sleepy days.
I love the sunshine on the beach.
I love making breakfast on the weekends or having breakfast for dinner.
I love my hair.
I love my smile, I would still like to get braces, but I love how I look in pictures when I am laughing.
I love wearing bras from Victoria's Secret.
I love sleeping in a cold room with lots of blankets.
I love blogging and being able to write whatever I want.
I love organized closets.
I love dangle earring.
I love Netflix.
I love watching movies.
I love when my hair still smells like shampoo in the middle of the day.
I love walking barefoot on wet sand.
I love riding in the car with my husband. Windows down and radio up.
I love sweet tea.
I love how I feel after a hard days work or a good workout. Sure it might have been a pain at the time but now it's over and I'm so glad I did it.
I love planning our dream house.
I love flowers.
I love things that sparkle.
I love wearing the color yellow.
I love my beach hat.
I love babies. I love when they laugh, they even look cute when they cry. I love how they smell.
I love my life.

I am so blessed.

I love that you read my blog! :)

Forever was only Yesterday

Five years ago we had roommates. We had only been married for six months when the lease was up on James' first apartment. James was really good friends with Trent, a guy from the boat, he was a newly wed as well. Virginia is pretty expensive for young 19 year old kids. So we met and agreed to live together. My mom thought I was insane. 

At times is was insane, lol. I hated living in Virginia. I hated the traffic, I hated how rude the people seemed. I remember James used to eat Sabrina's chips all the time. He is a chip addict. Sometimes it was crowded. Most of the time though it was nice.

When James and Trent went out to sea Sabrina and I weren't left alone. I remember I got in a car accident and it was nice to have Sabrina to go home and talk about it. She was an awesome cook too. She makes this really amazing shrimp pasta dish. She also made chicken spaghetti just like my mom. Sabrina used to dance in her seat when she would eat something yummy. After they moved I noticed that I do that now too. I clinch my fists and shake a little when I get excited about something. (James jokes that I have turrets and it's some sort of tick.) Sabrina started doing that a little before she left. 

Today we saw them. They are on vacation with Trent's parents and went to Orange Beach Al, it's about an hour from where we live. They went to the Naval Aviation Museum and we met up with them and had lunch. They are just the same but with two little girls now. Sabrina was just pregnant with their first when Trent got out of the Navy. 

When Trent and James saw each other Trent put James in a head lock and said "What's up buddy?!" It was just like old times and I nearly started crying. It is so nice to see old friends. They are some really good friends, genuine down to earth nice people. Those type of friends you don't meet very often in life. We have been fortunate to have at least one couple at every duty station that we have had that level of friendship with. They become your family. Maybe we jumped into by being roommates, but that's ok by me. 

It was nice to see you Trent and Sabrina, hopefully we won't wait four years for the next visit. We love you. 

This Band

James and I just watched "No Strings Attached". During the movie there is this band playing at the bar and they did this interesting version of "99 problems"
I looked it up and you can listen to them yourself. I really like them, they sound like an old rock band.
Anyway here is a link to their website.
http://www.hugoofficial.com/